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Now I'm about to go out with my friend Fanny and her friends, just had a Celsius energy drink to get some energy, laying on the couch for 4hrs didn't give me enough. Haha 

Anyhow been a pretty good day, so far no bs readings over 10! SCORE!!!! :)

Here are some pics from today

Ready to go out 

Ttyl

Swam this morning, went great, and had a pretty good day today until the afternoon, took a little bit too much insulin for lunch and was getting low about 2 hours afterwards, so I ate a couple of candy pieces which brought me to a good level. Then I prepared an early dinner, chickpea zucchini and tomato soup and an egg sandwhich, also had a couple of pieces of candy with that ( I am aware that this candy snacking has to stop, but really thought I could manage it), but thought my dinner was so light carb wise that one unit novo rapid would be enough, especially since I wanted to end up a little high (10) because I was gonna run for more than 90min only 2hrs after dinner and didnt want to have to eat again. After dinner I ended up at 14 at my first check, felt like I was getting high, was feeling feverish and getting a really pounding headache, which is why I checked my sugar to begin with, anyhow took 2 units to try to push my BS down. 45min later, only an hour before when my running workout with the triathlon team was going to start, my sugar was 16.5, which seemed odd to me, however not based on how I was feeling cause I was feeling really crappy at this point.. anyhow I decide not to run based on that Ive been told its deangerous to work out when your BS is above 15, called Fanny, because we were going to run together, and we decide to go for a walk around old town.. but before I leave my apt I kind of pannicked (because I read a fb post from another diabetic that we have to manage our diabetes really well to not get damaged organs later on - freaked me out), and took another 2 units, biked into the city, 1hr after my last shot my BS was then at 4.1!!!! (from 16.5 to 4.1 in one hour :() Since we were going for a walk, meaning more moving, meaning BS will drop more, especially since I recently took insulin - I decided to take 2 sugar tabs. 20min later, no change so I took 2 more tabs. 30min later it had gone up, I started biking home and stopped on the way home to get some cold medecine at the grocery store, walk in to the store and spend 200kr without getting medecine, completely fogetting, and sweating like a pig feeling another hypoglycemic attack coming on :/ I pay and walk out of the store, BS is lower again - 3.7 :/ eat some yoghurt snacks because at this moment I felt like I could eat anything and a lot of anything too! Knees were shaking from being low for so long and I felt sort of like I had had a couple of glasses of wine or something (meaning I felt tipsy from BS being weird)... its what the low does to you. I started riding home, called mom to keep me sane for the ride.. Fortunally when I get home Im at 6.7, so its finally going up! THANK GOD! However at this point, I really had to think of what to eat so that I would not get high again, because it is very easy to go quickly from low to high because of some complex bodily functions that I dont want to get into right now (and to be honest Im not even sure whats going on completely either yet) With help from my mom we decide that 2 finn crisps with cream cheese and cuecumber and a carrot seems good.. its important that the food you eat after the BS goes up from sugary foods is low carb and high fiber food. Now my sugar is finally sort of stabilized at 9 which is okay for me.. hopefully tomorrow is a better day diabetes wise, cause today kinda sucked! Vision is blurry, head is hurting, and feeling dizzy, but soon it is time to go to bed and recharge my batteries for a new day WITH BETTER NUMBERS!!!! 

 

After more thought, there is one really great thing about this horrible disease, you really learn that your friends and family are the best! Big thanks to Fanny, Mr. C, and MOM! for getting me through this night and always being there for me! :)

 

お休みなさい - according to google, good night in japanese ;)

Even though this job isn't what I want to do for the rest of my life it is fun to just have something to do for a couple of days :) because I still haven't found out if I got the job I talked about earlier!! It's taking a while, that's for sure! At this point I'm hoping I'll know something by the end of this week! Fingers crossed!!

Diabetes wise the past couple of days have been odd, I've been weirdly high but not like super high, just slightly too high and also been laying too high over night and waking up at 8mmol/l which is way too high for a morning/fasting reading. I think it might be because I am playing it too safe at night, thinking that it doesn't matter if I'm high cause then I can go to bed without worrying that I would get hypoglycemic during the night. Tonight I had 8.6, which is great, so hopefully ill wake up lower than the past couple of days. When I wake up too high I feel like I've been knocked by a bus sort of. I hope that tomorrow is better, cause it takes a lot longer to get energy when I wake up too high. Also, I don't think I need to take more long lasting insulin, I think I might have to take more mealtime insulin and snack less carb foods at night.. Which is easier said than done cause I always crave unhealthy stuff at night, tonight I satisfied myself with a rice cake haha, not really that satisfying tho to be honest haha

Tonigh I went for a walk and met up with my mom and we walked around "Årsta viken" where we stopped at the outdoor gym areas they have (3 of them) and did some exercises, I was a nice less intense workout although I'm already sore... Some of it might be from the 12Km I ran yesterday tho too ;) 

Here are some pics from the walk!

Tomorrow I'm waking up too early to swim so I should really be sleeping already. Definitely have to kick this going to bed late habit before I start working, whenever I finally end up getting a job! ;)

Night peeps

Needless to say it takes a lot to get over the fact that I have diabetes.. And as I said in the last post it's more about coming to terms with it than anything that is my main issue at the moment. However, with this issue of diabetes the issue of what I want to do in my life in terms of personal achievements becomes even greater. I basically have no clue and am more determined to find out than ever. My strategy is to try as many things I can, and to be open to suggestions in order to hopefully come to a conclusion about this at least before I turn 30 :P haha 

Now to this weekends events, yesterday was a great day, mom and I had a slow morning and then went to a farmers market with Alice (dog) to get some veggies for lunch and dinner (we had dinner with aunt and cousin last night, had a great time) then we took our bikes over to my apt and picked up a few things as I barely had any clothes at my parents place. And then we went back and baked and cooked all afternoon basically! Made these super delicious sour cream almond apricot cupcakes with heavy cream, almond and mascarpone topping, I also made super delicious pecan squares!!! Bad thing about baking is that you end up eating a lot of it afterwards, almost wish I could bake for a living instead cause I would imagine I wouldn't eat as much of it then, maybe I should open a bakery? It's actually been an idea of mine, move to a smaller town and open my own bakery? Or maybe a healthy bakery that people with diabetes doesn't have to feel guilty going to? Who knows what ill do haha I have so many ideas, but better that I say, than none at all ;)

Today mom and I went on a long walk, ate a lot of baked goods and then I went swimming just now (sucked really bad today unfortunally, however the other two times I swam this week went great so I'm still okay with this weeks accomplishments) 

Now we are gonna have dinner, salad with pesto pasta :) gonna be yummy!

Although after all this baking and eating the baked goods I have to say I'm not too hungry haha

Below here are some pics from the weekend :) 

Tomorrow I'm lifting in the AM and then going to meet another type 1 diabetic that is my age and was diagnosed a year and a half before me, so we share very similar stories. Gonna be interesting and fun for sure! It's nice to see that I am not the only one fighting this endless battle! 

Go' kväll ;) 

The positive thing is, deep down I know I will get through this because I don't give up, I just need to allow myself to be weak at times, which I've learned is probably one of the most important things for staying strong (weird and contradicting I know, but so true). With that comes taking help, support, and sharing my story with others. No battles are won by a single person, neither will the battle of my life be... It's hard to realize that you are dependent on other people helping you to get through the day, however, now that I am working on that I am hopeful that with a lot of work and dedication by me, my life with diabetes will get better and easier. What I've been trying to do so far is more trying to push the diabetes out of the way, instead of realizing its unfortunally here to stay. But now I'm going to make an effort to accepting it. It will take some time, but I'm sure I'll get there one day!

That's all the deep thoughts I had for tonight! 

Good night people

BTW.. Does anyone else have issues with snacking at night!? If you do and have any tips to stop it, please let me know! :) some days I'm just in such a snacking mood.

Anyhow, I'm going to bed very soon, should be in bed already cause I'm waking up at 5.30 to go swim tomorrow, first AM workout with the triathlon team I joined. Did my first full workout with them yesterday, 90min running and 60min swim, was fun! Of course I put myself at the head of the fastest swimming lane, as the competitor I am, I was able to hold my position but it wasn't an easy job, certainly not since it was my first swim since the triathlon a few weeks ago. After swimming tomorrow morning Fanny and I are going to a hotel breakfast! Been craving it for so long now, just love a Swedish hotel bfast they are the absolute best!!!! :)

Hopefully ill receive a very important and positive call tomorrow about a job I'm up for! Fingers crossed :) :)

Ciao! 

Through the help of my little diabetes blood sugar device I was able to control my sugar really well all throughout the race, wanted to stay pretty high cause I've noticed that if I keep feeding myself sugar to stay over 8 then I will keep my energy through the whole race and that's what I did today! The hardest part with racing with diabetes is the start, cause in the beginning there are so much adrenaline and nerves that my BS goes up without consuming carbs or sugar. 

Ever since the interview yesterday I havent been able to relax, having my first half marathon tomorrow doesnt help either haha... been just trying to do things that makes me happy, allthough today I havent even left my apt, might go for a ride into the city in a bit though. 

Today I made these really awesome paintings with acrylic paint for our apartment, but cannot show them yet, they are a surprise, so you´ve got to wait until like november ;) haha

 

Obviously now that I am a little stressed my blodd sugar (BS) is like sky rocketing, although it doesnt seem to bother me too much anymore to have high BS, what bothers me is more if I go up and down too much, but yesterday I was stable between 8-12 most of the time, allthough I did wake up in the middle of the night from my BS device that I have now this week, because my BS was over 15, so it was pretty much telling me my BS was way too high! so that was weird. Hopefully I will get into some kind of routine soon when I will hopefully have a job, because I am sure that will balance my sugar a bit!

 

Gonna try to get some organizing and cleaning done today too, but I always think that I should do that and want to do it, however I always procrastinate it, so we will see how that goes :P

 

CIAO

This is how it is, when a guy asks you to start bloggin again, a guy that you love and that does not ever demand more of you than being your beautiful self, then you cannot do anything but please him, besides I have missed it too haha. Mr. C wrote on my wall this morning that I need to get this bloggin started again, so of course here I am bloggin away again. First of all, my life at the moment is on a halt, because one main piece of my life is not even in the same country as me, I am obviously talking about Mr C again..so please if the immigration offices in this country sees this...HURRY UP GETTING MY GUY OVER HERE!!!!

 

This week a lot is happning, yesterday morning I was at the hospital, got new asthma and allergy medecine that I feel is working wonders already. This morning I was also at the hopsital and got a needle atatched to my lower left back, its a device that measures my blood sugar constantly that I am trying out for a week now. It is connected wirelessly to a little computer thats smaller than a phone, it then gives me a graph and glucose readings allthrough out the day and night. Kind of hate having something attached to me like this, which is really making me feel like I would really never want a pump attached to me. However, just trying this thing out for a week is great, especially since I have my first half marathon this saturday, this device will help me monitor my blood sugar during my race while still running :P

 

Today I went to visit my grandparents in TROSA, so beautiful out there! We went to a buffet lunch, lots of food and really good bread! BREAD is by far my biggest load in terms of things that I love that I should not have that much of, especially not now that I am a diabetic.. unfortunally :(

 

Tomorrow I am just chilling and walking my dog Alice, might take a trip into the city as well and look at a few things! As most of you prob know I got a hair cut and am a lot blonder these days.. with that my hair got a really torn and messy, so I need to go and find a really good shampoo or something. ALSO tomorrow I am preparing for a very important job interview on thursday, which is all I want to say at this point. Hoping for success but know that if this wasnt meant to be then I wasnt meant to be and in that case something else will happen, I know there is something out there that I am meant to do, what that is will be exciting to find out!!

 

This week I also started training with Stockholm City Triathlon team, my friend Fanny and I joined the team which my dad is already a part of. We went to the running practice today and it was a lot of fun, I didnt do the whole thing cause it would have been too intense with my half marathon coming up, but Fanny did all of it and said it was crazy hard but also a lot of fun!! so I am really excited for starting training with SCT for real next week! :P 

 

Right now I am watching Swedish IDOL, been following it...its pretty exciting actually being able to follow these things now that I am still in Sweden after the summer is over and not back in Cleveland!!

Only thing missing here during my TV nights is MR. C!!! Estimated arrival, November sometime..and it cannot get here soon enough, allthough I kind of hate that month otherwise, this year NOVEMBER IS THE SHIT! haha ;)

 

Love y´all!