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Was only supposed to be in cincy for last weekend, for the triathlon, but decided to stay a little longer. So tomorrow I'm going back to Cleveland again. 

Yesterday Mr. C's mom and I weNt to a painting class where we got to paint the Cincinnati skyline, was a lot of fun. Was like a girls type event kind of with wine and drinks as well as the painting. On monday we went to a baseball game, Cincinnati Reds vs Cleveland Indians, we had gotten tshirts before the game to support the reds and they won haha, I bet my guy is proud I supported reds even tho they were playing the Indians :)

 

Here are some pics

 

Had a great day today, finished my second triathlon ever, first one with diabetes, and it certainly turned out to be more of a challenge! Started off the morning with a high and a minor freak out ever it as well :S haha but when I got started with the race i calmed down, but still felt like my diabetes wasn't collaborating completely with me today. Legs were sluggish in both the bike and the run, for the future races I think I need to practice ahead of time in more similar situations to the race so that I kind of know how my body will react. Anyhow I'm super happy cause I made it under my goal which was 1hr20min, official time was 1.19.20 :) and I came 3rd in my age group and 99th overall between both men and women. I had told myself that if I reached my goal i would reward myself with an iPad.. So later today I got a white iPad mini 62GB :P its awesome and am currently typing on it. Gonna eventually get a keyboard for it, but not until I'm home in Sweden cause I need the åäö on it ;)

 

here are some pics :)

 

Sometimes when I take my glucose or shots (about 6-10 pricks in the finger for glucose and 2-6 shots in the belly or buttocks area per day), I get an aha moment of "oh yes I have diabetes". Every time this happens its like a reality check and almost like I am one percent at a time realizing I have this diesease and that I have to live with it, by the way I am maybe 25% there so far :P . Tonight this happened, when I was going to test my sugar before going to bed, I always like to test it to make sure my number is high enough so I do not have to worry about dipping too low over night, tonight it was 8.4mmol/L, which is to me a solid number. I like to be as close to 8 as possible when I go to bed (wanted range at all times is 5-8). Anyhow, as I said tonight was another pinch me in the arm moment, when I got one step closer to accepting the fact that type 1 diabetes is now a part of my life forever. Ive read a couple of blogs from other people with type 1 and am currently reading a book called "not dead yet" by a type 1 diabetic pro-cyclist and it seems like for all of us, it takes time to become at peace with this disease. Different from other diseases, there is not really a treatment that will instill us with hope that we will get better.. because as far as the research has got today, they still have not came up with anything to make type 1 diabetics less diabetic. What we can do, is accept that we have this, find a way to make it a part of our lives but still not take over our lives, and do our best to control it so that we can be healthy. From different people affected by diabetes I hear hope of finding cures, but that does not really help me now! I mean I think it is great that a lot of money and resources is put into research for a cure, however, that hope will not help me live my life now, I still have to work on accepting being diabetic.. I cannot prolong my acceptance in hope that soon there will be a cure, becuse that is too uncertain.. 

 

I know this is some deep diabetic thoughts going on here haha..maybe too much to post in public, but I feel like as a diabetic its easy to fight silent battles, because to the public it does not seem like we are sick. That can be a huge benefit, because even though we are sick we can still live our lives almost like anyone else.. But the mental battle with coming to terms that your life is now controlled by numbers is still pretty great. I am definetely not seeking pity, I kind of despise it, just putting my thoughts out there hoping that maybe it will help people realize that just because people look and appear normal, they might be fighting a huge battle either physically or psychologically that you know nothing about (or in a diabetics case both). 

 

Doing a two day tapering now for saturday, meaning that today and tomorrow I am going to take it a little easier witht the trainng, have been working out hard the past week and the body is sore, so today I am just going to do some endurance training on the machines at the rec center plus abs and swimming I think. Was going to go for a bike ride today but it is raining. Later I am going for a lunch/dinner with Gretchen and after that I am gonna go to target to get some stuff for the race, like gatorade, bars etc.. The tonight Ive got to pack for tomorrow because I am leaving sometime between 10-11am already, because we have to go to the triathlon place to register already tomorrow night. Its supposed to get a little colder over the weekend, which might actually be nice for the race day since its been like 30C for a while now, its so hard to train in the heat, I feel like I cannot breath most of the time. 

 

The triathlon we are doing this weekend is as I said in the last post calle tri for joe, and is an event for a little kid called Joe who was born with Down syndrome, its a non-profit organization helping other people and families with down syndrome, in part through this race. Exciting to participate in a race for such a good cause and Ive heard from many people that it is a really fun and exciting event.

Here is their logo

SO I have signed up for a triathlon this wekend..and this is also the week I started training, so Im quite sore now...today I ran 6k, 30min eliptical, 30min weights, and 2000m swimming :P The triathlon Im gonna do is called tri for joe and is down in Cincy.. gonna be exciting but scary too, and interesting to see how it goes with my diabetes.. Its a 500yard swim, 20k bike ride and 5k run, so its a short race which is a nice trial race for the olympic triathlon Im planning to do in august in stockholm.

 

The days are getting better and better here and I am really starting to get into my eating and training routine, I just have to keep it up. I have a big laundry pile growing and growing which Im gonna take care of tomorrow, cause tonight I do not have the energy and am probably gonna be stranded watching some movies, searching the web and looking at some shows, gonna be nice..

 

My sugar is finally starting to become more balanced again too... I think it is totally because Ive started working out again, its so crazy how much working out regularly benefits me now when I am a diabetic!!

 

Anyhow, got nothing more to say for now :P

 

TTYL

Been real busy for a while....and now Im really not busy!!! my day currently consists mostly of deciding when I should go workout haha.. but its good, cause one of my goals this summer is to become more fit. So I am trying to think more about what I am eating as well.. and try not to eat snacks at night and the past few days have gone pretty well.. since I started training I have also been able to get my sugar down a lot, its been really high (in my opinion) the past few weeks when I have not been training as much. 

 

SOO now Im finally graduated from college!! :) Was really exciting to have my parents, brother, and grandparents here for it and of cource my guy Mr.C.. we had a great time, but now everyone has left.. after so much going on and so many people around me, I know have a lot of time to figure out how to be happy with just me..and it has turned out to be a challange but I think Im doing pretty well so far..a few bumps in the beginning, but then it got better I think haha.

 

And also found this on pinterest and thought there was some good rules in there :) Definetely trying to follow some of it :)

 

Tonight has given me some serious proof of how much my diabetes affects me.. Today was may 5th, cinco de mayo, or whatever it is that the americans call it. Over here it is a big holiday for drinking, especially for college kids. I decided to partake in some of this, so I ended up having some wine.. the alcohol did not get me intoxicated, however, it has still affected by blodd sugar a great deal. I came home two hours ago, so at 10pm and have been eating high carb and sugar food since. When I came home my sugar was at 6mmo/L and right now it is at 5.7mmol/L and between now and then I have had two pieces of bread, a banana, an apple, and a greek yoghurt.. normally this would skyrocket my sugar, however now it still got lower.. so to not keep eating more food before I go to bed I decided to now take glucose tabs (dexterosol) instead, 3 of them..and hoping I wont wake up from a low in the middle of the night... When these kind of things happen it makes you think about if going out partying really is worth it.. However, diabetes should not mean you should sit locked up in your apartment doing nothing either? should it? 

 

Anyhow, a week ago I wrote about being nervous for my HbA1c... it turned out I was nervous for nothing, got the results back on friday and it had gotten lower, thus better, and was now at 5.8%, last time it was at 6%. This goes to show that I am certainly given myself too much criticism, cause I seem to be doing a very fine job at managing my diabetes even though I do not think I am most of the time. However, there is something I have an issue with, and that is trying to maintain my weigth and or loose weight with my diabetes, if anyone have any adivce I would greatly appreciate it!! Ive read up a little bit on this online and it seems that what I am doing is feeding my diabetes, which is when you keep taking too much insulin so you eventually have to eat more than your body actually needs to just make sure the diabetes isnt causing you to get a low. Ive read online that a way to try and fix this is to keep better track of what I eat.. and I have tried doing this and I always do really well with it until I eat something that I am not proud of (e.g. too much) and then I give up. I think I need to stick to writing down what I eat and insulin dosage, even when I am not proud or like what I ate, and how much I did not work out and so on.. 

 

Anyhow, Mr. C and I both feel that after our swimming careers were over we have gained some weight so we are gonna make sure that we both focus on loosing some this summer, mostly to become healthier people and more athletic. It will be interesting to see what this summer has to offer. The uncertainty is kind of disturbing me at the moment, and making me uneasy.. however I am at the same time sure it will all turn out for the best, but in the brief moments of panic over it..it is hard to remember that it will probably work out for the best..

 

My parents arrived to the States yesterday, but for now they are in New York, they are not coming to Cleveland until thursday, my brother is also coming in that day YAY!! and my grandparents are coming in on wednesday! and in less than a week now I am finally graduating!!!! Last exam is thursday.. havent started studying for it yet so got to get on that!!! 

 

Tomorrow Mr. C and I are going to Iowa for three days, unfortunally he lost his father recently, and we are going there for the memorial. I cannot even imagine how hard it must be, but I will do everything I can to support him and his family. I love both him and his family and they have become like a second family to me, so I hate that they have to go through this. During times like these you certainly realize what is important in life and what isnt.

 

Good Night,

TTYL

 

 

Almost there, only two classes tomorrow and one exam next week then I am done!! Think Im getting 2 A- and 2 As :) Parents and grandparents and brother coming in next week! 

And my hubby is back tomorrow, cannot wait to pick him up at the airport :)

Diabetes has behaved the past couple of days, except from a low earlier today..meant I couldnt work out, but getting up early tomorrow instead and getting a run in before my 10 a clock class :) maybe 10k, gonna try :P so I guess I should probably go to bed soon since its almost midnight, but have not been able to go to sleep before 1am in a week and a half now! CRAZY, just not used to sleeping alone I think.. since Mr.C has been away for a little.. Did some shopping earlier today, Ashley (friend from swimming) and I went, a black formal dress, a blazer, and a pair of nude heels.. all really pretty :P Maybe ill post a pic sometime in the future :P Very excited about the shoes especially cause Ive been wanting nude heels..also got groceries.. a bunch of greek yoghurt! its my things these days! :P so delicious, and found this 100cal greek frozen yoghurt with only 18g carbs and 12g sugar :) YAY! and it tastes JUST LIKE ICE CREAM! :)

 

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