PROOOF
Kategori: Allmänt
Tonight has given me some serious proof of how much my diabetes affects me.. Today was may 5th, cinco de mayo, or whatever it is that the americans call it. Over here it is a big holiday for drinking, especially for college kids. I decided to partake in some of this, so I ended up having some wine.. the alcohol did not get me intoxicated, however, it has still affected by blodd sugar a great deal. I came home two hours ago, so at 10pm and have been eating high carb and sugar food since. When I came home my sugar was at 6mmo/L and right now it is at 5.7mmol/L and between now and then I have had two pieces of bread, a banana, an apple, and a greek yoghurt.. normally this would skyrocket my sugar, however now it still got lower.. so to not keep eating more food before I go to bed I decided to now take glucose tabs (dexterosol) instead, 3 of them..and hoping I wont wake up from a low in the middle of the night... When these kind of things happen it makes you think about if going out partying really is worth it.. However, diabetes should not mean you should sit locked up in your apartment doing nothing either? should it?
Anyhow, a week ago I wrote about being nervous for my HbA1c... it turned out I was nervous for nothing, got the results back on friday and it had gotten lower, thus better, and was now at 5.8%, last time it was at 6%. This goes to show that I am certainly given myself too much criticism, cause I seem to be doing a very fine job at managing my diabetes even though I do not think I am most of the time. However, there is something I have an issue with, and that is trying to maintain my weigth and or loose weight with my diabetes, if anyone have any adivce I would greatly appreciate it!! Ive read up a little bit on this online and it seems that what I am doing is feeding my diabetes, which is when you keep taking too much insulin so you eventually have to eat more than your body actually needs to just make sure the diabetes isnt causing you to get a low. Ive read online that a way to try and fix this is to keep better track of what I eat.. and I have tried doing this and I always do really well with it until I eat something that I am not proud of (e.g. too much) and then I give up. I think I need to stick to writing down what I eat and insulin dosage, even when I am not proud or like what I ate, and how much I did not work out and so on..
Anyhow, Mr. C and I both feel that after our swimming careers were over we have gained some weight so we are gonna make sure that we both focus on loosing some this summer, mostly to become healthier people and more athletic. It will be interesting to see what this summer has to offer. The uncertainty is kind of disturbing me at the moment, and making me uneasy.. however I am at the same time sure it will all turn out for the best, but in the brief moments of panic over it..it is hard to remember that it will probably work out for the best..
My parents arrived to the States yesterday, but for now they are in New York, they are not coming to Cleveland until thursday, my brother is also coming in that day YAY!! and my grandparents are coming in on wednesday! and in less than a week now I am finally graduating!!!! Last exam is thursday.. havent started studying for it yet so got to get on that!!!
Tomorrow Mr. C and I are going to Iowa for three days, unfortunally he lost his father recently, and we are going there for the memorial. I cannot even imagine how hard it must be, but I will do everything I can to support him and his family. I love both him and his family and they have become like a second family to me, so I hate that they have to go through this. During times like these you certainly realize what is important in life and what isnt.
Good Night,
TTYL
