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My name is Joanna and I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes at the age of 22. Other than having diabetes I am also an athlete, student, girlfriend, swimcoach, receptionist, boardmember, avid baker, and the list goes on... Interested to learn more? - then read my blog why dont you ;)

Tacos yummy!

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Its quite nice when you know you've pushed your body to go further than ever before, a very satisfying feeling! (I'm talking about my longest ride ever today)

I feel more motivated than ever to train more and harder. It's crazy and I'm sure everyone haven't experienced it.. But working out gives so much energy back although you are actually using energy to begin with. However, it does take a little until it becomes rewarding I think, because if I've taken a little break getting back into it can be real hard sometimes. 

Anyhow, finished off the day with delicious tacos and a little ice cream 👍😜 yummy in my tummy! 


I've been wanting to take more walks lately, however Mr. C isn't a fan, tried convincing my brother when he was over earlier but that didn't work either, they just sort of  ganged up on me instead..

If anyone cares for a nice evening walk? Just let me know, next week my mom is back in town - trustworthy walking partner 👍 

Nighty night

Its okay to have a lazy afternoon

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Fanny and I went on a long ride around Bornsjön today and stopped for fika at Sturehofs Slott! Was great allthough I wont lie, it was also strugglesome. I think the total ride ended up at about 83km, my longest ride previous was 10km less. I am slowly realizing what I have gotten myself into, 180km is the ride for the Iron Man, at the moment I cannot even grasp adding 100km to my ride today.. However, I still have more than a month left! Next weekend I am doing a 120km ride, which will be my longest before the race. My advantage is that I am pretty competetive, so when its race day I will most likely perform better than I have ever trained! :P
 
Now I am going to chill for the rest of the day.. yay! Later on my brother is joining Mr. C and I for a taco dinner, yummy!
 
 
The fika place is so awesome, so many different buns and cakes along with lunch food.. can really recomend going out there if you want to escape the city for a few hours!
 
Me and my bike, we have a love hate relationship :)
 
Sugar stayed pretty good allthroughout the ride today, allthough it astonish me every time how much I have to refuel during a workout. I am taking extremely little longacting insulin at the moment in order to allow me to not drop that much during workouts. I have to refuel less than before, but still a lot more than Fanny had to during this ride. It is really easy to notice the difference between having type 1 and working out versus not having it when you ride with someone else. I was riding for about 4hrs today where at least 2 of them where very slow because it was transportation routes to get to the lake. When I got home I felt naucious and sick to my stomach, it might have been because I was tired, or the bs was dropping. No matter what, learning how to handle these situations is important before Iron Man raceday.. because if I cannot manage my diabetes during that race I will be doomed no matter how much I have trained "physically" for it.
 

Just keep swimming.. and running and other shit

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Good workout day and bad blood sugar day, when has that ever gone together for me before!? NEVER!!!
 
Its been decent, its been high, its been low, but not very steady this lovely wednesday. Sort of like the weather we have been experiencing, sunny, raining, really raining hard, hailing, and then sunny again. The weather was certainly bipolar today - same as my diabetes!
 
Anyhow today Ive managed a 5km run, 45min weights and 1hr swim :) Thumbs up!!! On top of it all I felt super strong doing it, all of it... weird how it is sometimes! 
 
Another weird thing is that my usual "cannot keep my eyes open feeling" that I get when my bs gets really high, its gone! Now I barely feel any different neither when I am high or low - very odd!
 
Now Im having oatmeal with apple and cinnamon for dinner because it is the only thing I feel in the mood for after this rollercoaster of a day! Also, big thanks to the kind guy in my lane today at swimming who gave me his juice box when my bs went a bit too low. 
The dinner was more like apple with oatmeal rather than the other way around! Very good though :)
 
Tomorrow Fanny and I are going on a 80-90km bikeride, it will be my longest ever, but we are taking a fika break at about 65km so it should be fine! I will let you know if we made it!
 
Sleep tight

Life is all about the new opportunities, beginnings and challenges...

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When I last saw you guys Mr C had just arrived, at the time I was kind of writing my blog because of him, he appreciated being able to read about what was going on in my life when we were apart. Therefor when he came over I stopped, because I didnt feel like I had the time or passion at that moment to continue. However, 7 months has passed and I feel ready to start this again!
 
A lot has happened the past 7 months, Mr C and I are doing well and are getting on our way to become settled in the swedish lifestyle. Allthough Ive lived in Sweden for about 19 years, 4 years away made it difficult to get back into things when coming back. It was also an adjustment having Mr. C arrive.. but now we are getting into the swing of things. He has got a job and I am also working, allthough its part time jobs, a few of them.
 
I had to leave my previous job as a web editor due to company cut downs, however it pushed me to pursue my dream of becoming a coach/health advisor/physical trainer. I have applied to a 3-year program that will hopefully help me get there.. more about that later though. 
 
Now I work at a gym (Friskis&Svettis) as a receptionist and love it! I meet so many fit and motivated people every day and get both energy and great tips for my own training from it. Different from my previous job when I was sitting at a desk all day... a desk job is nothing for me! and I am thankfull that I realized that early in life :)
 
A month ago I ran the Sthlm Marathon and it was sooo hard!! The most difficult and painful physical task I have ever pushed my self to complete. I learned a lot about my mental strengths, that I am stronger than I think and can push myself and my body a lot more than I thought before. I also learned some of my diabetes, I stupidly took insulin only an hour before the race, because I needed to eat something little... sure enough about 10km into the race I feel like I am running out of energy, which really should not happen because I am very used to running 10-20km. I was wearing a continous blood sugar meter at the time (CGM) and it was showing a quick drop from 10mmol/L to 6, only within abotu 15-20min which is a bit to quick, especially during a race! Sooo, I pund down some gel, energy drink and glucose tablets and after another 5km my sugar has gone back up to about 8 again - right where I wanted it! Unfortunally the drop made me loose lots of energy and by the half marathon I was sooo tired.. I pushed myself to keep running - NO WALKING! - and was able to do so until 32km was completed when I started cramping, had to stop and stretch and walk and run on and off! An hour later when I crossed the finish line - I cried, I was so happy, and the most tired I had ever been!!! 
 
No when a month has passed I am so proud of myself and try to use the finishing feeling to motivate myself to continue training hard.. I still have ways to go, but no matter what on august 16th at 7am I am starting my first Iron Man ever!! and I will finish! Only thing stopping me is if I pass out (which with diabetes is not that unlikely, but lets hope not :P).
 
Anyhow, a little recap of what is going on and some of what has happened the last 7 months. From now on, continous updates on the day by day progress of my life with diabetes, triathlon training, working and school (hopefully)! :)
 
Today I went on a run outside with a stop for a weight workout at Friskis:
Sunny and warm, how summer is supposed to be like! 
 
TTYL /JO
 
 

ONE WEEK MINUS 2HRS!!!

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Saturday dec 7th is almost here now, he arrives in the morning, which means this is my last saturday without him, its so unreal. He called last night while his whole family (extended) was at his moms house, so I got to speek to everyone individually, was great but made me realize how much I miss all of them. Talked to one of my great friends Jamie yesterday too, and the absolute biggest downside of moving home has been leaving all these wonderful people behind. Whats comforting is that they are all just a planeride away, so I am going to have to save money to make it over there a bunch, we will see for how long we can go back for in april, two weeks or so would be great at least mayber we can go more even! we will see! :) 
 
Yesterday we went to Ikea after work (mom dad and I) and I got some storage stuff so that Mr. C and I wil both fit in this apt with all our stuff, the apt is decent size though, not in US measurements but in Stockholm measurements its huge haha (48square meters). They also brought over the other bed so now we have two beds in the bedroom, we will have to get a mattress that covers both of them later but for now this works :) I also got some more xmas spirit stuff like tons of candles! Today I am going to work on making the apt look great and clean out the closets and stuff, I was going to go spinning but woke up not feeling 100% so im gonna pass today. Trying to work on listening to when my body tells me that I should take a break and be comfortable listening to that, I usually feel too guilty when I dont work out, but I am trying to move away from that!
 
Trying to plan what we will do next weekend (mr.C and I) but think we will just see how it goes, he might be pretty tired and jetlagged and overwhelmed so probably just a chill day with a nice dinner would be best :)
 
Here are some pics;
coffe last weekend at my parents, mom and I was baking lussebullar and gingerbread biscottis. and yes I have sort of started drinking coffe, I dont know how much I will continue doing it tho haha.  feels like my mouth tastes funny after drinking it. 
here`s the stuff we baked. 
Got a haircut on thursday, want to look pretty for Mr. Cs arrival next weekend ;)
Theres now two beds in our bedroom! Feels GREAT!
 
So now you might wonder, what about my diabetes... It has kind of been on the back burner this week, which I realized yesterday, but obviously, as soon as I started feeling that it was behaving itself, then I was hit by a low and got shaky in the middle of Ikea shopping yesterday haha ah well, I guess I should try not to say im doing well, cause it hears it and screams with a creepy voice "IM STILL HERE" haha
 
Now, a day of organizing, possibly xmas gift shopping and grocery shopping, looking after myself, and then dinner with my cousin tonight at her new apt = a solid saturday!
 
Happy Weekend :)
 
 
 
 

Visa is approved and flight is booked!!! :)

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I cannot even put in to words or really figure out my own emotions (extatic) from yesterday when I first around 2pm found out that mr. Cs visa was approved and then later at night when he booked his flight!! He is arriving on Swedish ground early in the morning on December 7th! Only two more weekends without him, 16 days and 17 nights. AMAZING!!! I'm so excited to continue our lives together cause in ways it seems like its been on hold for the past half year. But in two and a half weeks it will continue again and I will have everything I've ever wanted!! We applied for the visa in April and it seemed so far away then, but now looking back at it seems like time flied! I think we are both nervous and anxious of whats ahead of us, but mostly excited to see eachother again! I believe things will work out for the best, everything has some kind of purpose I feel like, or at least I have to believe that it does to deal with life. I think as long as we are together things will work out, with jobs and culture shocks etc. I truly love the holiday seasons and now I will love this one even more! December 7th cannot get here soon enough!
 
Im so happy and on top of all this I've finally been able to start working out again!! Yay!!! Things are working out!
 
 
Mom and I went to dinner at vapiano tonight!! We had a cozy evening in the city, great way to end a workday!!! I realized now when I got home that when you do fun things after work it almost seems like it hasnt been a workday. AWESOME! ;)
 
Good night, may your week be as happy as mine! :)

 

All black

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Dressed all black today, don't know if it was on purpose or not, but today marks a year since my diagnosis, a year with diabetes type 1 who would have thought! Was about to bike to work but it was raining which u couldn't tell from inside, so went about 5m on the bike before I turned around and thought, I'm not gonna make myself bike to work in the rain without spare clothes with me when it's such a sucky day anyways, so now I'm on the bus = much nicer! 


A year ago at the ER in Cleveland! 


Yesterday was world diabetes day, went to a "demonstration" in the city, but it was all kids with diabetes and their parents so sort of left left out cause I dwe to there by myself, so I left and went and got some

Xmas decoration instead :P sort of wish my guy would have been here yesterday and today, two emotional days when it would have been nice with more support, but the stupid immigration office is sure taking their time :/ yesterday I had some conversations at the office about diabetes and they didn't really brighten my day, it's thought having discussions about this sucky disease when the ppl you talk to know nothing at all basically, but I mean pretty much whoever I talk to about this is like that, except from my closest friends and family of course. It's crazy how the unawareness is so big, it's almost overpowering, but a year ago I was guilty as well cause I didn't know much about it.. However the issue isn't as much unawareness as making assumptions when you don't have all the facts. Ppl tell me all the time that if I would change my eating habits maybe I could reverse it.. Hmm I could revive my pancreas!? I don't think so.. So it doesn't matter if you don't know much about diabetes, but don't base judgements on the little that you do know and a lot of us diabetics would be much happier! ;)


I really don't want to work today, I like my job, but wish today was a weekend day.. at least next year the 15th will be a Saturday I'm sure.. But the 2nd year isn't as big of a deal.. The first year with something new is always the hardest, like the getting through the first year of a new relationship, thank god mr. C and I are way past that!! Yesterday my bs got high at work and my head became a blurr because of it.. Couldn't keep straight thoughts so tried doing as many things as possible where I didn't have to think that much, like putting up pictures and such.. But it's quite hard cause for most of the work I have to think. Left a half hour early too, had over 6hrs overtime saved up ( saving for when mr. C gets here), thought yesterday was a good a day as any to leave early.. Will see how today works.. Meeting up with fanny after work so that will be fun!! We r going out for Indian food! My favorite!!! :) I'm gonna try to stay at work until then! I'm glad I have something fun to look forward to during the day! 


Tomorrow I'm dog sitting Alice, should be fun, like a trial run for when mr. C and I get a pup, we still haven't agreed on a breed tho, I like the black mini poodles but he wants a big dog so we will see what happens with that :P 


If you guys wanna do a good deed for us diabetics it being diabetes awareness month and the day after world diabetes day, then read up a little on it maybe? One if the basics that I think people should know is the difference between type 1 and 2. So there you go a little homework haha ;) 


Have a good rainy day you all if your in Stockholm, if not I hope the sun is shining on you! ;)



Super busy

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I'm so busy right now, you guys are going to have to bare with me for a little, eventually I'll get back to posting more frequently again... I'm trying to save up hours at work for when Mr. c get here. Been working late and then have had things to do afterwards, yesterday I worked until 6pm and then went to the soccer gala with my brother, last minute thing, saw Zlatan! 

Today I worked until 7.45pm and then went to the pool to help some of the people on my triathlon team with their stroke! 

Now I'm trying to wind down for tomorrow, going to the hospital at 7.45am then another long day at work. At least my cold is getting better, starting to move over to caughing now which is usually the final "act" when I get a cold haha

Friday is my year day for getting diabetes and Fanny and I are going out to dinner and I'm eating sugary stuff all day just to prove some kind of fact, idl what really though haha, but sugary stuff are tastey so why not right? Haha idk if I will or won't yet, I guess it depends on how I feel about it that day! Anyhow cannot believe it's been a year.

Checking my email every two seconds hoping for an approval letter for mr. Cs visa! It better be here by Friday or else! 

Nigh ya'll 

New tat?

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I got a cold anyways, thought I was about to escape it a couple of days ago when I did well and didn't work out, but "Icke sa nicke" haha.. Hopefully I can still swim the meet tomorrow we will see cause as of now I'm a "snorpåse" haha 

Looking at potentially getting a diabetes tattoo, would make me feel safer if I were to collapse somewhere around no one who knows I'm type 1. Been looking at Pinterest and drew this up just now. 

I would put it on my wrist(handled) because it's somewhere someone most likely would look if I was unconscious. I want a star on there because I love stars, think they symbolize hope and being confident in that whatever is going to happen will happen I've always said "only the stars can tell" like they are the only ones who know what will happen in the future so I should just lay back and let whatever happen happen... This philosophy might not work for everyone, but for me it works cause I'm by nature very controlling, so thinking more like this make me feel better about not having control, which I often do not in regards to my diabetes. The 1 in the star is obviously for type 1 ;) anyhow, will see if I do it... But think it would be good since me being diabetic is nothing that will change ever! 

Yesterday I went to my parents apt and had sushi with my dad and brother after work. Mom wasn't home. We had a nice time and was great to take my mind off of work for a little. Yesterday was quite awful, up and down a great deal in the morning. Bs from 7 to 15 to 4 to 8 to 3 to 8 all before lunch at noon, after that I couldn't think straight which was a bit difficult having a job when I have to think about stuff to write all the time! Today went a little better diabetes wise :P cannot believe its Friday tomorrow already, the weeks just fly by and in 3 1/2 weeks my guy will be here.. Hopefully!!!  <3 


This was my energy at work yesterday haha, good to have some sugar free energy when the diabetes is acting up! :P 

Night peeps!

Rain.rain.rain

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This morning I rode my bike to work in 4C and pouring down rain! I def don't have clothes for Sweden yet, but don't worry I ordered a bunch, get a great discount on evrything that we sell at my job (addnature) and we have over 9000 sports and clothing products so I found some amazing stuff! Hope I get it soonish! :P 

It's weird but my diabetes has been kind of in the back room for the past few days, some way without noticing I got into some sort of rhythm and it became less of a big deal in my life. I don't have to put that much energy on it if you know what I mean, which is a great change! I think it might be because most of my energy goes to work now, this week is definetely the hardest one so far, super tired and it's a lot to learn all the time.. I'm guessing it will take some time to get used to the hours and the way to go about things.. Positives are that I'm getting to know my coworkers a lot better which is awesome and like I said above, I put less focus on my diabetes :)

My sore throat is pretty much gone, however I think I'm gonna take it easy this week, maybe ill swim Thursday morning and then ill do the "meet" on Friday... It's a relay meet and I'm only doing a 50m free :P haha i don't know if ill even warm up haha

I'm gonna go buy climbing shoes sometime this week at one of the addnature stores and most likely go Climbing this weekend and purchase a membership card, I only have to climb 3 times a month to make it worth it so I feel like it will definetely be worth it :) I also found out that some girls at my job climb on wednsdays at the same place I go to so I might start doing that with them eventually!

Crazy it's probably less than 4 weeks until Mr.C moves here! Next week I'm hoping we will get the news about the visa approval! :) 

Right now im laying pretty much knocked out on the couch! Gonna be so nice to sleep soon :)

Here's a cutie pie! Took this picture this weekend :) 


Night

sorry for the radiosilence

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Have had a pretty busy week with bday and some other plans. Bday went alright, started bad with high bs but then we figured out why, my insulin wasnt working, so I fixed it and the next day my bs was back to normal fortunally!
This weekend has gone by so quickly, went to dinner at my parents on friday, my dads cousin and his family from the west coast were in town so we had dinner with them, was a good night! Then on saturday morning I went climbing with a girl I met through triathlon, it was a lot of fun and I hope to climb more in the future, my arms are so sore now, I even struggle to hold the fork and knife eating haha. Then I went to my grandparents grave to put candle and flowers there with my aunt and dad, I think its nice to pay respect even though I dont know if they know I went, it makes me feel good! Later on Fanny came over and we made a delicious dinner filled with tons of veggies and then fruit and dark chocolate for desert, watched a movie and some TV, was a great girls night! 
 
Today I woke up with a really bad sore throat unfortunally, last time I got sick in the spring I wasnt able to work out for 3 weeks, so hope by not training today and for the next few days it wont get worse. I was supposed to go to biking class with my dad but I think that it would have just made it worse so unfortunally I couldnt go. But went to hang out with mom and we rode our bikes back home to my apartment where we sorted out my paperwork, bank, bills, insurances, hospital stuff  and all other things that I need to keep control over. Up until today its just been piling up in the kitchen haha, she is a great organizer and I am not so it was great!!! :) After that I have just been taking it easy on the couch. 
 
Hopefully the week after this following week we will have the visa approval in our hands and we can book a flight for Mr.C! YAY!! Its november already!! allthough not sure if he will be able to get here before the end of the month yet, maybe the first weekend in december, but hopefully the last weekend in november! 
 
Allthough I do like my job! I hope this week will fly by, because I want it to be 4 or 5 weeks away already, you all know why! I will try to have fun before then though! and am sure I will. Im swimming a "fun" swim meet friday this week and hope to be able to start working out more and more this month including some climbing as well too!!!
 
Here are some pics from instagram:
This is the awesome outfit I got from my super sweet boyfriend Mr.C for my birthday, he picked out everything from the neclase to the dress and everything fit and looked great on me! Idk how he did it, cause I struggle finding things that look great on me all the time!!! :P the thought is for me to wear it for our first date when he gets here! IM SO LUCKY! :)
 
Climbing on saturday, so much fun! and such a great workout and way more exciting than going to the gym, but still as good for the muscles! ;)
 
Desert last night with Fanny, cashew butter spread on mango, persimon, and pears, was delicious!!! :P
 
 
CIAOO
 
 
 

some things frustrate me

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The whole workday today my bloodsugar stayed above 10mmol/L, except for one short hour before lunch when it was at 9, last week I could not take insulin with breakfast because of the bike ride to work (my bloodsugar would get too low, meaning danger for passing out), today when I got to work wasnt the same.. bs was at 15 :/ ah well just have to take some insulin, took 1.5unit, nothing happened, took another 1.5unit and it finally dropped down to 9. It is not acting like I am expecting it too and I am really trying my hardest to make it listen to me! I was going to go climbing today, but I was so tired leaving work, bs was still high, and I decided to not force myself to do something I had no energy at all to do. You know that feeling you have after eating a big buffet, you feel pretty tired and maybe have a slight headache from all the food and sweets you had - if you amplify that feeling a lot and make it last for several hours, that is how I feel when my diabetes isnt cooperating and my bs is too high. But what can I do? Really nothing but stay calm and give myself a shot, adjust and hope for a better turnout the next day.
 
What I then saw tonight when I got home sort of frustrates me, I saw the front page of a Swedish health magazine called "Hälsa" stating that with the 5:2 diet diabetics would not have to take insulin. The 5:2 diet is basically eating a fairly normal meal plan for 5 days out of the week and then not eating much at all for the other 2 days as a way of loosing weight. The misconception here is that as a type 1 diabetic you will not survive without insulin, there is no way you can live without that medecine! I can starve myself for a whole day, not taking insulin, and still have a high bloodsugar, going to the movies gives me a high bloodsugar for gods sake! If my bloodsugar stays high for too long I will risk poisoing myself with my own blood, because there would be too much sugar going around in my blood system, this would/could lead to liver and kidney failure, the complications to not taking insulin are endless. The only people that could benefit from the 5:2 diet would be type 2 diabetics that are not insulin dependant, with type 2s their pancreas is still working(in most cases), it just does not have the power to steer the insulin in the right direction. In my body my pancreas does not produce any insulin, anitbodies attacked my insulin production, which is why I need to inject it every day, 4-6 times per day/average. Come to think of it, its about time for my nightly shot!
 
The thing is, the unawareness of what type 1 diabetes is, is so vast that when magazines put out things like this on their cover, people start thinking things about our disease, that it is easy and that we could be doing better than we are by eating different. Okay yes, my diet will effect the outcome of my diabetes, but that is in connection with my insulin intake. I can eat whatever I want as long as I can give myself the right amount of insulin, knowing what that amount is isnt always easy. Reading this you must realize that it is an extremely hard disease to manage, I struggle on average once every day with my diabetes! So when a magazine says that diabetics can be "cured" via the 5:2 diet, Im sorry but I get quite frustrated with that! It spreads the wrong message and gives "långnäsa" to everyone who is fighting every day to stay alive with this diesease, myself included!
 
If there is anything I want you to take away from this is that, I do everything I can to manage this disease and there is no way I can manage a life with diabetes without insulin! Because to this date there is no cure for this awful disease.
 
Sorry to put a damper on this evening, it being the day before the big 23rd birthday and all... just felt really strongly that this had to be said!
 
night.

Highest high since ER

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Saturday I went to lunch with my brother and then to the movies, after the movies my bs was at 21! Highest since I was diagnosed at the ER in the US!! Was quite shocked, felt crappy or the rest of the night but managed to get it down below 9 before I went to bed and woke up at 7 so that's a positive. Been a decent first weekend after a full work week, been pretty chill. I just want time to pass superfast now so Mr.C will get here sooner, plan is to just work and work out as much as possible until he gets here so I can take it easier with both and have more time for him. 

My bday is on Tuesday! 23! Seems like the older you get the less you celebrate it other than the big ones like 30,40,50 and so on. Going to have a family dinner and then maybe going out next weekend to sort of celebrate it.

Tomorrow I'm going climbing, never went last week like I said, cause the girl
I was going with injured her foot but she's doing better now, so we are going tomorrow.. I'm excited and hope I like it :)

Now I'm watching solsidan, such a fun show! Then helenius hörna, an interwsting talkshow then going to bed early tonight! 

Morning pics before work om friday!
Lunch in the sun! OMG! 

Bought wine to celebrate the first week of work! And two Swedish books to get better at my Swedish, grammar in particular, for work! 


Night!


Cookie Monster!!!

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Today has been a good day, fun swim work out in the am, had a good workday and got to know my coworkers a little better, was assigned to make the fika for tomorrow's Friday fika, so made carrot cake cookie sandwhiches with cream cheese frosting. 


My bs is finally reaching a good level too, almost there with the adjustments! And tomorrow it's pretty much the weekend! Gonna attempt a run tomorrow during work, we'll see how that works out. 

Happy day before Friday everyone! ;)

Awful fall weather!!

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Today the weather was really terrible!!! Rainy, grey and windy!! Brrrr
Sucky part is that I biked too and from work and it's important to dress warm but I still sweat like a pig, on the positive side, I at least have a job to bike to and from ;)

Been low all day today since yesterday, so lowered my long lasting insulin even more tonight! Hopefully by the end of this workweek I will have figured out my insulin intake as a working woman! ;) swimming this morning unfortunally went terrible, prob much to the thanks of the diabetes, but also from being tired from working most likely, I'm not used to working 8hr days! Haha 

By the way, bs dropped below 4 twice today without me getting the usually feelings of getting low or hypoglycemic, WEIRD right?!? I thought so! 

Tomorrow I'm gonna go climbing probably, if I have the energy after work haha, a girl I met through the triathlon team asked me if I wanted to join in! I'm excited cause I haven't climbed since I was in middle school!!! Besides everyone else at my job climbs and we sell pretty amazing climbing gear so I better get started at it too right!? ;) I've got to fit in!! Haha

Night peeps ;)

First workday without hypoglycemia! SCORE

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I was able to get home today without getting too low, my bs was still at 4.8 when I got home which is fairly low, but still. Also, didn't take insulin with my oatmeal this morning, and my bs was at 5.3 when I got to work!! I definetely need to lower my nightly long lasting insulin now that I am "biking" for 1hr30min per day! Was getting really tired at the end of my work day today, don't understand why I'm so tired every day when I sleep at least 8hrs per night. Went to bed at 9pm last night and couldn't even fall asleep until 45min later... Maybe I'm getting too much sleep?

Made delicious dinner tonight:
Pasta with mushroom, spinach and veggie beef :P yummy!!! And now I have more lunch boxes for this week of work!!! :D

I think I'm gonna start a countdown until C day, the day when Mr. C will arrive! Which hopefully is 4 weeks from this Saturday! Fingers crossed <3

Good night! 


first weekend as a working woman ;)

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It feels really good to actually be able to appreciate the weekend, before I got this job the weekend was just two other days of the week.. nothing special, but now I can go back to LOVE the weekends like I used to when I was in school! Friday after work I met up with my brother and we had a nice dinner downtown, I was pretty tired though so still made it home by 8pm.. oh yeah and on my way home I hit another 2.9, on the same bridge! 2nd night in a row! DANG! I took too much insulin with dinner and biking always gets me super low. I have realized I dont value a bikeride just going to work, the city or home as something similar to a workout, where my bs drops.. have to start doing that now, so tomorrow morning I am going to try and have oatmeal without insulin, since I have a 45min bikeride to work. Friday morning my bs was at 4 when I got to work, which isnt good cause then I just have to eat more to get my bs up if this keeps happening and that isnt good for my weight. 
 
Later friday I talked to Mr.C who had just had his interview with the embassy! It went really well and we are hoping to get an approval within the next couple of weeks at most!!!! Really hope this wont take too long, the plan now is that he will fly over here after the US thanksgiving! Just over a month away, SO SOON! Dont wanna be apart anymore :( just want to be together, no matter what country, city or wherever really, hate long distance relationships! 
 
On saturday I had a chill morning and caught up on my US tv shows, modern family, parks and rec, parenthood, and greys anatomy. I had forgotten about them and remembered when I woke up that I hadnt seen them.. SCORE!! haha, later in the day I went to one of my moms gyms where I had signed up for a gym workout, it was super intense, pretty much only upperbody, but thats just what I need, because triathlon training is a lot of legs! After that I coached my mom and brother in the gym, it was nice doing the coaching, and they got tired so I succeeded! :) When we were done at the gym mom and I looked in some stores at the mall and I got a new purse. I told myself that if I got a job I will reward myself with a purse, and this was that purse! ;) Then we went home to my parents apt and we had a delicious family dinner! Pizza and coleslaw!! one of my favs!! 
 
Today my dad and I went for a run, I havent been running too much lately, becuase of different reasons, so it was nice to get out, I ran about 12.5km holding 5min24sec pace :P REALLY GREAT but got supertired!!! When I got home I was energized, always is after a good workout, but now I am super beat and have been the whole afternoon haha gonna be an early bedtime tonight, partly becasue I AM GETTING UP TOMORROW MORNING TO GO TO WORK!!! First full work week next week, will be interesting to see how me and my diabetes will handle this new challange, probably the same way we have handled challanges before, sort of like a rollercoaster, with ups and downs, most important thing is to be moving forwards and even if youre moving downhill you are moving forward ;) cute little metafor there wasnt it :P
 
Yesterday I got my first birthday gift, birthday is october 29th so a little over a week away, ASHLEY my sweet amazing BFF from the US sent me an awesome package of deliciousness and a cute frame and winecork.
I put the picture frame in the kitchen, amazing pic of Ashley and I, we are so gorgeous! ;)
My dinner tonght, a sallad of everything, mushroom, cabbage, tomatoes, cuecumber, red onion, carrot, corn, feta cheese, balsamic vinegar, olive oil, salt and pepper. Was super delicious!
This was my view leaving work on friday, quite the amazing scenery out by Frihamnen ;)
 
Happy Sunday peeps! Stoked that I have somewhere to go and something to do this coming week, Ive stopped being a lost soul looking for work haha joke aside.. It feels amazing having something to do! More or less only one things/person missing, you know who you are! MR.C! ;)
 
GO BENGALS! ;)
 
 
CIAO
 
 
 
 
 
 

First day at work!

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My first day at my new/first job today went great! Wasnt supposed to get there until 10am, but was early, because I went swimming in the am and then to bfast with my dad and by the time I was done it was only 9am.. so I came in at 9.30am instead haha kind of typical me though, usually on time or early so I guess that is good! I got put to work pretty much right away, was writing for the website already by the afternoon, I still have a lot to learn, but felt like I was able to learn a lot today. They use a certain program for putting stuff on their website, and its a bit tricky now in the beginning, but my philosophy is trial and error and eventually there will be less errrors :P Anyhow, I left work today at 5.30pm really happy because I figured out how to add several pictures to a product, SCORE! haha I am excited to go to work tomorrow morning, which is great I think! I am aware I might not feel like this all the time, so every time I do I think is a win! I work with awesome people and in a supercool atmosphere so I am super happy with how this turned out!
 
After lunch today I was getting really tired and couldnt stop yawning, which I didnt want to since it was my first day at my new job. I started thinking why I was so tired, but thought it might just be because I swam in the morning. Then 3hrs after lunch I find the time to test my bs, and it was 12.5 :/ /(THATS WHY I WAS TIRED) my novorapid insulin works for 3hrs so if my bs is high 3hrs after eating thats not very good.. so I took 2 units to get me down and also had a fruit as a snack. Then about 2hrs later I leave to go home and have another fruit because I start feeling hungry. The ride home is about 40-45min, 10min left on the middle of a really long and always sucky bridge I start to not feel my legs and completely loose all energy, I start thinking to myself "why is this happening"??? Then I was like, maybe I am low.. I stop to eat something (carry snacks pretty much all the time since my diagnosis), however I decide to test my bs first... 2.9!!!! OMG, thats the lowest I have ever been, i freak out take three sugar tabs and a banana.. then I start craving everything and its a real pain in the butt during those last 10min home.. stopped at the grocery store and got some yoghurt candy (crave it all the time when I get low) When I got home I had dinner and took insulin with it so I managed to not get the usual high that comes after a low.. was just a little bit ago at 6, so at least I managed my bs decently well through this low, although it sucked getting low.
 
BTW my meal last night turned out amazing!!!!!!
Curry, lentils, light cream, veggie chicken, broccoli and rice :)
 
 
All for now, need to go to bed soon..sort of beat after today, with the morning swim, new job, highs and lows ;)
CIAO

CRAZZZZY

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This week has been intense and great so far, as I predicted.. Much of monday went by, but a quarter to five in the afternoon I received the call that I GOT A FULL TIME JOB!!!! was beyond excited and in shock, because at this point I thought it would never happen haha The job is with a company called Addnature that sells outdoor sportswear, most of their sales are from the website, but they also have 3 stores in the downtown Stockholm area. My job will be writing for their website, you could say the job is within marketing which I think will be a great thing for me. They want me to start tomorrow (thursday) so it is all happening super quick, which has both its pros and cons obviously, but I am excited to get into it and finally be able to get into some sort of routine. 
 
Friday is the big day for Mr.C, when he is going to the Swedish embassy in Washington DC, really really hope that the process moves quickly after that, dont want to be away from him any longer. Until recently it has worked fine, but feeling like I am now reaching the point where a long distance relationship truly sucks, dont understand people who manage a long distance relationship all the time, I want to be with the one I love all the time pretty much haha I am hoping he will be here within a month! :)
 
Yesterday my grandparents came to visit, my grandfather watched after Alice and my grandmother and I went shopping. Alice had 4 teeth pulled out on monday so we could not leave her alone yesterday. My grandmother and I had lunch and went to some stores and I found two awesome pairs of jeans at Zara, which she bought for me!! :) My grandparents are both such giving and kind people who really brightens up my day a lot when I see them, not just because of gifts and money, but I appreicate being able to spend time with them and I always learn a lot and have a great time. Anyhow, my grandmother found a really nice jacket for herself at Zara that she got and then we went to look at an Ipad for them. She ended up getting a white Retina display 32GB Ipad, which I helped set up for them when we got back to my parents place. They are really becoming technological (both Iphone and Ipad now), which is fun, because I think technology makes it so much easier to keep in touch with them. 
 
Last night, after my very awesome day, I was going to go run with the triathlon team, I swam in the morning, but didnt run that much last week so felt like I needed to get back into it. I always find it hard to get my diabetes/body right for a night workout, I always seem to be at a wack for it, I think it might have something to do with having to change around meals and stuff, because this running workout is at 7pm, which is when I usually have dinner, maybe changing dinner time changes the bodys reaction to insulin and food, if anyone have any insight about this I would love some advice!? Anyhow, last night I was starting to feel out of energy around 5pm, had been higher than normal most of the day, more around and over 10 ( 7-8 = where I want to be). I was trying to stay positive, because I had decided I needed to train, but then I got outside and it was supercold, starting feeling feeverish, got to the pool to change for running and bs was almost 14, I have been told I shouldnt work out with bs over 15. I feel like I should really just go home and to bed, but I make myself start the workout with the group. I didnt make it far until I realized there was nowhere in my body I could find energy and I was feeling sick to my stomach so turned around and cut the workout short. Ultimately I wish I would have listened to my body before the run, but I am still learning, so hopefully in a year or maybe longer I will trust myself more. When I trained swimming, there was always a coach that told me to swim, so I didnt have to think for myself as much, but now I am completely in charge over my training, and that together with my diabetes can become a challange. WHEN is my diabetes telling my body you need to slow down, and when is my lazy mind telling me? You who know me, know I rarely if ever give up, but I still doubt myself and sometimes feel that I give up even though it might not be perceived that way. My goal is therefore, listen to myself, I want what is best for me, I want to improve athletically, so when I am telling myself I really should not do a certain workout I am not ruining things for myself. It is easy for me to write this now, the challange will be to change my thought process so that when these things happen, when I feel like I need to take the day, night, or week off, I stop second guessing myself. 
 
This morning I was at the hospital early and among other things got a new blood sugar meeter, another advice from Camilla, my new friend through the diabetes organization. She also told me about the new pen I got. Anyhow, this meter is great, I dont have to put in a new stick that draws my blood each time, the meter contains 50 of them, which makes the bs checcking process a lot quicker. It might not seem as much, but for a diabetic any little thing that makes things easier is much welcomed! :)
Here is a pic of my new toy; 
 
I am currently at my parents place, been looking after Alice today, but about to get on my bike home soon, wanna make something delicious for dinner and really kinda craving rice and a curry veggie chicken dish.. have been pinteresting for a recipee, but cannot find any good ones, so I think I might come up with my own recipe! ;)
 
TOMORROW IS FIRST DAY AT MY FIRST EVER FULL TIME JOB!!! OMG OMG OMG
AND FRIDAY MR. C IS INTERVIEWING WITH THE EMBASSY!!! OMG OMG OMG
CRAZY, A LOT OF FUN NEW THINGS IN MY LIFE TO PROCESS AND BE EXCITED ABOUT!
 
GOOD AFTERNOON PEEPS ;)
 

Sunday and cannot wait for monday :)

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I have a feeling this will be a good week followed by more great weeks. Hoping I will receive a positive work call sometime this week, would truly be awesome to work for this company, I would never have dreamed to be able to work with sports and communication at the same time, I think this job could lead to some great opportunities for me to develop. Then on friday Mr. C has his interview with the Swedish embassy in Washington DC, he has booked his fligths and is all ready to go. I am so proud of him, yesterday when I talked to him my mom was there too and asked what Swedish he has learnt and he now knows how to count to 10 and the weekdays, and his pronounciation is really great too! He is a natural :) Hearing him speak some swedish like that was really an emotional moment for me, because it is becoming all very real that he is coming over so soon and that the dream of us living here in Sweden together is actually about to come true! What he is doing for me (moving here, learning my language) is the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me, and I will work on making him feel as comfortable as I can when he gets here to show my gratitude :)
 
The week after this week I am going to call the immigration office again and hopefully be able to speed up the approval of the visa application :) Then the week after that its my birthday, I am going to be 23 years old! OMG! haha and its also mine and Mr.Cs anniversary sort of haha we dont really have a set date, but my birthday a few years ago was an important date to us, so thats why we made it the anniversary date too :P Unfortunally we probably wont be together physically by then, but hopefully not too long after that he will get here!!!
 
I just got home from my parents, nice to stay there from time to time, since I live on my own now and kind of still starting up here in Stockholm it is very nice to have their support and company at times. The food there is also a lot nicer, allthough I am quite good at making delicious meals for myself at home, the quality of the food they buy is usually a little higher haha But I also think its important to take the time while you have it to spend time with your family, because then there will be times when you wont or cannot spend as much time together.. like for me the past 4 years I havent really spent much time with them, so its nice to catch up a bit. 
 
Anyhow, now I am sort of cleaning haha its kind of an on and off process.. I am such a procrastinator when it comes to this, which sucks because even to me it seems smarter to just get it over with as quickly as possible so you just get it out of the way instead of having it laying over your shoulders as like a thing that "oh yeah I need to do that" haha I will get it done soon tho ;)
 
I was planning on working out quite a bit this weekend but on friday I started getting a sore throat and I still have one, so I didnt work out yesterday and not today either, better to rest now then have it break out into something worse than just a sore throat.. being sick is even worse when you have diabetes, last time I was sick was in april and it lasted for 3 weeks, which has never happened before I got diabetes. This afternoon there is a club meeting at the pool with the triathlon team and they are also having a sale of the club clothing, so I am going to take a walk there and maybe do some exercises at the outdoor gym by the pool, but nothing to exhausting.. I think weights can still be alright doing when you have a slight cold because its not bad for your airways, which is what usually bothers me the most when I get a cold. 
 
Last night my aunt, uncle and cousin came for dinner and mom and I made cupcakes, they were delicious. One was a yellow cake base (sockerkaka) with mascarpone raspberry topping and chocolate sprinkles, the second cupcake was a chocolate brownie base with chocolate frosting and coconut chips on top, some pics below;
They were amazing, I am not a huge chocolate dessert fan but even the chocolate cupcakes were delicious. Big plus is that they looked really good too and were a lot of fun making! :)
 
Hope you all have a great last day of the weekend, I cannot wait for monday! 
 
CIAO