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"YOU ARE AN IRONMAN!" I get chills just thinking about it now afterwards, those were the words I heard when I crossed the finish line at 7:32pm on saturday night.. as I said in my previous post my goal was to finnish before 9pm, so I exceeded my expectations by almost an hour and a half. I am actually not used to exceeding my expectations because I always set high goals that are hard to reach, so this was a different feeling - I WAS SO HAPPY!! :)

 

I will go through race day from the beginning now.. it all started at 4.30am, woke up, was not very nervous and I was able to sleep through the whole night (6hrs). Had a good breakfast and took 2units of Novo Rapid (fast acting insulin), got a bit nervous as my CGM showed an arrow straight up, but after a short while it gradually leveled out and by the time I had to leave it on my bike to go over to the swim start I was at 11 - right where I wanted to be! :) My dad and I went to the front of the swim start, right before the start I started getting nervous, it was slowly sinking in what I had ahead of me that day.. 3800m swim, 180km bike, and 42.2km run!

 

The start went and off we were... I didnt see my dad until 2km from the finish line abotu 12 and a half hours later.. there is so much going on in the swim start it is impossible spotting anyone. I tried to stay out of peoples legs and kept to the side, the last thing I wanted was to get too stressed in the beginning - I reasoned that the swimming was my time to get a good time while not having to try so hard, thus already from the start I kept an steady pace and gradually kept pushing a bit more, at a little less than halfway I took the gel I had put into my wetsuit because I felt like I was loosing energy, but other than that it went pretty much as I expected - the swim time ended up at 58min, I wanted to swim faster than 1hr so I was happy! I was 5th woman out of the water including and 1st in my age group. 

 

Took it easy in the transition and tested my bs on the way over to the bike, it was at 7 I think. Thought that was good, but ate my banana like I had decided to do before the race. Got on my bike and started pedaling. From the start I kept a good pace without even trying, around 31km/hr average for the first 20km I believe, I also started drinking my energydrink and took a gel within the first 10min on the bike. 25km into it I realize DAMN! I forgot to take my Lantus (long acting insulin) in the morning!!! SHIIIITTT!!! I started panicking and tried figuring out a backup plan, my lantus was in my backpack that I wouldnt be able to get too until I finnished the whole race or quit (but wasnt about to do that). I decide that I will stop to check my sugar quite regularly just to make sure i wasnt spiking and if I was I would use the lowest dose I could give myself which was half a unit of the Novo Rapid that I had on me to get the bs down ( I figured that any more than that would most likely make me hypoglycemic) .. however, I never had to use it! It was like I was supposed to forget to take my shot that morning.. AWESOME!! My sugar stayed great allthroughout the ride, between 6.5-9.5mmol/L. I think that if I would have taken the lantus in the morning, I would have had too eat so much more and probably ended up with stomach issues - I WAS SUPER HAPPY! My diabetes did so well that day :P

 

Mentally the ride was difficult, just sitting on the bike for so long was both painful and quite boring, I was so happy to get to start the run eventually! There was no way I would quit this race, allthough the thought of "why the hell did I sign up for this stupid race" did occur more than once during that ride, especially going across Öland which was sooo windy!! The 180km took me 6hrs and 38min, 22min faster than I had hoped :P 

 

Took it easy in the 2nd transition as well and drank some energy drink (celsius) before starting my run. Bs was at 7 when I started running and legs felt decent but weird as they should when youve just gotten off the bike after almost 7hrs haha. After 2km I remember looking down at my watch thinking damn its only been 2km! But after that I got into it and felt really really good - huge surprise for me! ( I am not a runner, but goal is to get a lot better at it this fall ) Knees hurt form the start but my stride and energy level was good. I hade decided before the race to run the whole marathon except from the aid stations which were 2km apart, where I would walk and drink water, energy drink, and coke - and that was exactly what I did the whole way! :) happy about that! My energy was sooo good up until 30km, my average pace was at like 6.25min/km, faster than my marathon in May and I felt like I could go on forever. The 30km mark was right before leaving the city to take one last loop out in the suburbs of Kalmar (the running course was 3 and a half loops I think haha wasnt really keeping track and actually got a bit confuse haha). That was when I died, or at least my legs and energy level did. I dropped my pace up to 7.15-7.30min/km just from one kilometer to the next, I have no idea what happened - but I thought to myself "at least I am still running and not walking like a bunch of people that I was passing was" which gave me the strength to continue running instead of walking. Those last 12km were the hardest, I think I started crying during the last 5km and then with 2km left I was back into the city with the amazing crowd cheering - Mr. C, my mom and brother who had been cheering me on like such great troopers all day were there and so was my dad who finished at an amazing PB time for him 10hrs 31min! The last 1km went faster and the last 100meters to the finnish line (on the blue carpet) I sprinted against another guy that tried to overtake me before right before it... being the competetive person I am how could I have let him beat me!? :P haha I belive we finnished at the exact same time, theres a video of it which I will try to post later! My running time was 4hrs44min, only 7minutes slower than my marathon time from May, could almost not believe what I had done :)

 

I would advice everyone to do an Iron Man just for the feeling you have when you finnish it haha AMAZING!!!

 

My time was 12hrs and 32 minutes :) :) :)

 

My legs were dead, I had chafings everywhere, and I was probably super gross from a whole day of racing - but man was I the happiest person ever! :P 

 

 

 

We are now on Öland, the island close to Kalmar where THE race is held this saturday! Not much more left than 24hrs until start soon and the nerves are increasing.. it is so awesome to finally be down here, today we registered and visited the expoarea for the first time.. and for the first time it felt like THIS IS FOR REAL! It would be a lie to say I am not scared for what I am about to do, because I am.. but I am also very excited to get going, to see what my body can handle, what I am capable of, and how far I can push myself with this disease. 

 

Diabetes wise my bs has behaved this week, I have been thinking to rather take a little too much insulin than too little so I do not get high.. I figured that the week before the longest race of my life it is probably okay if I end up going a little low and having to eat.. thanks to my CGM (continous bloodglucose meter) I have been able to eat before going too low and taking extra insulin when I see that I am going high, my goal for this week has been to stay withing the range of 5-10 all the time, so I have been correcting bloodsugar levels at even 10 or 11mmol/L which I never do otherwise really. 

 

Tomorrow morning we are going in for a swim on the course at 7am, which is when the race starts on saturday as well, so it will be a good rerun of the actual raceday.. but that means that I need to go to bed now! Maybe I will take a nap tomorrow, because I have a feeling that tomorrow night will be a more sleepless night haha I am looking forward to the joy of crossing the finish line sooo much I am just going to have to get there no matter what!

 

I am aware I havent written about the hiking trip, but I have been too busy.. I will make sure to write a post about it sometime next week thought, it was a trip definetely worth writing about! THATS FOR SURE! So many great views, people and moment all wrapped up into one weekend! :)

 

Some pics of lately and sneak peak of the pics from the hike ;)

Soo we are back in the city again (stockholm) and getting back into the normal routine or the lack of it haha 

 

I work weird hours and different every day, yesterday I coached in the morning and worked at Friskis at night, today I had to run errands and then coached at 2pm, tomorrow I am coaching in the morning and then working at Friskis at night again.. on Thursday though, I am going away for the weekend on a hiking trip!

 

Why??? you may ask.. Actually did not know if I could write about this yet but since my name and picture is now on the website I can.

 

Since the spring I am a part of the youth diabetes organization board (Ung Diabetes) here in Sweden and I have for the past months worked on arranging a hiking trip up north (Höga Kusten) that is happening now just in a couple of days!! I am both nervous and excited, hope everyone will enjoy their time and the weather will be good! :) I am super excited to be a part of the organization and have already learned so much, both in regards to diabetes and other things like arranging activites :P

 

This weekend we will walk about 30-40km in 3 days, so I will consider that my training for that time, however I am hoping to swim a little in the lake thats by the place we are staying at, if my shoulder will allow it! The Iron Man is not far away now and today I stocked up on some energy gels, bars, and drinks. 

Just ate an egg sandwhich, I always get hungry during these car rides, but I feel like it's more the lack of doing anything that makes me want to eat.. Normally many unhealthy things are consumed during these long car rides. But I've been avoiding sugary stuff since Thursday last week. While eating my eggsanwhich I started thinking "ugh I always eat so much during rides", then I realized that I am not this trip because everything that I am eating is healthy. Are you confused?! What I've noticed is that if I only eat good and pretty healthy meals and snacks then I do not have to think as much about how much I eat, especially because I work out quite a lot!! 

I love food and I think that not eating sugary stuff such as candy, ice cream, deserts or cinnamon buns, is allowing me to eat as much real/good food as I want!! To me this is awesome and it's also helping me keep a more leveled bs and energy level. All those sweets are dense in calories and low in nutrients, thus not good for me. With my diabetes I am more prone to develop other health problems in the future and eating less sugar will most likely allow me a longer life, as it would to anyone, with or without diabetes. I am also thinking about going vegan for a month and then see if it helps me feel better - even though I love my egg sandwhich! 

I've noticed that people question my eating choices sometimes, it seems they are of the opinion that you only live once so why limit the things you are allowed to eat! For me though, it is not about that, I'm just trying to figure out how to live my one life feeling energetic and healthy, because since I got my diabetes I have struggled - limiting or choosing a better diet for myself is the least I can do for myself to live a good and long life!

Awesome night out on the island at the moment! Delicious dinner and beautiful views! :) I had an awesome quinoa salad instead of the crayfish! 

Took a little break from blogging, been at the summerhouse now for 4 days and felt its about time I get back at it. The weather has been so good we have been laying out and going out on islands almost every day. It has been so warm that we have gotten many thunderstorms and I saw stockholm has gotten some pretty intense and dramatic weather as well... soo crazy, Sweden never gets like this!

 

Wednesday last week I had dinner with my really good friend Camilla (also type 1) and we came to the conclusion to remove sugary things from our diet until the 16th of august (day of my Iron Man). I had a week not too long ago when I did not eat many sweets at all and havent felt that good in a long time and so we thought why not try it out for longer. So starting thursday morning last week I have not had many sweet things at all, the only exception was when we went for a crazy long ride yesterday and my bs needed something that would spike it. GUESS WHAT! My bs has stayed so good and I have barely needed any insulin at all!! I am very interested to see if this trend will continue or if it is just some random week when it is like this anyhow. It probably doesnt hurt that I have worked out a lot in the past week as well!

 

Soo, yesterday we went on a 104km ride! I had a training pb at 40km with 1hr24min and also at 100km at 3hr28min. Superpumped that biking is feeling sort of good. It is only 19 days left until the Iron Man!!

 

It is very nice being at the summerhosue because we just chill, workout, go in the ocean (which is like tropical atm, 24C even you mormor would like it!!!) and eat great food. The working out aspect is almost the best, it is so easy to get out here, you can start your ride from the doorstep of the house and there is no transportation to get out to good roads like in Stockholm, there is a big ocean to swim in which is free from jellyfish now because it is too warm for them at the surface (they go to the bottom of the ocean) and the weather is great = perfect training conditions! 

 

I do not know what we are doing today, part from eating crayfish on an island tonight, I dont eat them because I am allergic and dont like them anyways but its still nice going. 

 

Here are some pics from the past days:

This afternoon I lost my head, could not think/focus at all.. this happens to me sometimes, I just loose all energy and need to focus to make up a good sentence. My english becomes especially lacking at these times. Was at the triathlon event again tonight (same as last tuesday) and was talking about swimming to a big group of people, I hope I made some sense and helped someone because it certainly did not feel like it.   

 

Earlier today:

Sitting on the dock as hellasgården, got up from the workout, found a (half) legitimate excuse and took it.. I do not want to swim! Have had the worst motivation level ever when it comes to swimming lately. It has actually been hard to get out and do any type of working out, there are several reasons to this.

 

Physically, my diabetes has not cooperated with me in the past week and I had migraines again yesterday. I cannot help but feel that my body is just not with me at the moment. It goes in waves, sometimes I feel pretty good for a couple of days, energetic and all that, but then I just loose all of it just as easy.. I have not been able to spot a pattern, it would be awesome if I could pinpoint something that triggers the bad days. 

 

Psychologically, I am struggling handling everything with my illness, there is a constant battle in my head of what I should and should not do when it comes to everything, work out, eating and sleeping even. I have a hard time figuring out if I use my diabetes as an excuse or not. It took me forever with swimming to trust my instincts, for example, when I was younger I would train even though I had a sore throat but it would always lead to me being gone for longer, eventually I started trusting my gut feeling so when I started having cold symptoms I would sit out on a few practices until I got better... I am not trusting my gut now that diabetes is in the picture. Maybe it is something you get better at after longer time with it, I hope so.. 

 

Present time:

At the moment I kind of just want to take a break from everything; diabetes, training, worrying about eating and sleeping, working, money worries... you name it, would be awesome if all of it would just leave me alone for a week.. only a week... I want a universal remote control like from the movie Click, I would PAUSE everything around me except for Mr.C, him and I could just lay in front of an ocean somewhere without worries AND diabetes - THAT WOULD BE THE DREAM!

 

This depressing post aside, I will keep on fighting, because I am not a quitter! I will not give up, even though it may sound like it when you read this. Tonight I am going to chill on the couch with my awesome guy and then go to bed clean (just showered) and in clean sheets (sheet switching day), three great things right there that WILL make me feel better...

 

 

 

Been an intense workweek, worked monday thru saturday.. feeling like it is okay to not be at the gym for a couple of days now, allthough I am considering going there to workout soon again :)

 

Tonight Mr. C, my brother and I went out to the burbs for a barbecue dinner with my really good friend Fanny and her sister Anna whos also my good friend. Was a lot of fun and the food tasted awesome, grilled food in the summertime is just the best!!!

 

Right now Mr. C and my brother are out on the town, but I felt like I needed a chill night by myself at home more. So now I am sitting here and just stumbled upon the end of a supertouching movie called "brothers", I teared up and got a big lump in my chest, crazy how I only saw like the last 30min of it but still got so drawn into it. 

 

I am so excited to go to the summerhouse on thursday, we are going to be there for a full 10 days! AWESOME :)

 

Only 28days left until the Iron Man now, did a workout scheduele that I am going to try and follow for these days leading up to it. 

 

My sugar is finally back to normal again and have stayed that way for a couple of days now, sooo thankful for that!!! Allthough I had slightly elevated sugar today at work, the only difference between today and the past two days was that I did not work out in the morning after breakfast, maybe that is key for my bs to stay good!? Maybe I should try to get going on a routine with regular morning workouts, like running, swimming or bikeriding. The problem is that sometimes I also like just chilling.. haha will see what I come up with!

 

I am starting to think about what kind of training I want to do after the iron man, because I have decided I want to give triathlon training a break and maybe focus more on running and swimming if anything. Right now I am thinking that I want to get into lifting more weights and build up a better strength. Compared to my strength level when I was a competetive swimmer a couple of years ago I am sooo weaaakkk now!!! :P

 

Oh and last night Mr. C and I had dinner at my brothers apt, he has such an awesome view!! If I lived there I would be on the balcony all the time. We shared a pizza and then got some sallad from the salladbar at the grocery store, it was so yummy and awesome!

Tomorrow we will try to go to hellas for a swim, I also need to organize and clean the apartment, because it gets kind of messy when I have a hectic workweek :) Maybe we will go lift at the outdoorgym too.. and if the weather is good I definetely want to lay out as well, I need to work on my tan! 

 

Been three days now with bad/high bs... changing out the insulin seems not to have worked as quickly as I would have wanted it too. When my body does not get insulin for a little while, or it gets useless insulin, it goes into survival mode and probably wants whatever insulin it can get a hold of. So now when its getting "good" insulin I guess nothing is much enough. I had an avocado sandwhich today, last week I would have taken about 1 unit maybe for it, but today I had to take 2 units and still did not end up at the bs I wanted. 

Sucks how you can go from lows to highs on a day to day basis, not only bs but also motivation and mindset. Today was a low for everything but the bs - usually happens like that!

 

If I am on the lower end of the bs I usually feel better than when I am high. This is for several reasons, when I have a day that my bs keeps staying low or good (range of 4-7) I do not have to take as much insulin and mentally that makes me feel better - because in many ways the more insulin I take the more I realize that I have diabetes and how sick (stupid) my body actually is. On the other hand, the less insulin I take the more healthy and normal I feel.

 

Another reason why highs make me feel worse is because I know they do more longterm harm to my body, while I feel that I can manage lows well enough to not risk any serious bodily injuries. Furthermore, getting out of a high is soo much harder!!! Like today, my bs stayed high all morning between 7am-2pm, I kept taking soo much insulin and it wasnt working.. I figured out pretty quickly what it was though, my insulin had gone bad!

 

You see, I "knew" /had strong suspisions that the insulin would go bad during my ride on saturday, because I brought it with me and it was close to my warm body on a hot summer day. Insulin goes bad if its exposed to temperatures over 25-30 degrees celsius and on saturday mine probably were. Once again this is proof of how I am not willing to realize and come to terms with the things that now effect me (because I have diabetes). These things got to change and I have to become smarter with my diabetes. A day like today could have been easily avoided had I just trusted my instincts! 

 

Ah well, you live you learn! JOANNA PLEASE LEARN ;) 

 

 

 

Yesterday my dad and I went for a long ride out to Trosa, we started at 8am already! It was a great day, sunny and cloudy with little winds. First 40km was about my fastest 40km in training and we kept that pace for the whole distance, we ended at 117km and an average of 28.5km/h, CRAZY! I never would have thought I could have done that, but my dad helped a lot by being in front and not pushing me too hard but still making me go fast! My goal for the iron man is to keep an average above 25km/h, if the conditions are good that might be possible!!!

 

I only had one diabetic malfunction, I noticed at about 2hrs that I started feeling nausious, it just came over me very quickly. I thought to myself, either I am low or I am high. After being nausious for only a minute I decided I needed to check my bs, so whatever it is it wont ruin the rest of my ride. My bs was at 3.9! SO, good thing I checked. Every time I go for a bikeride I am astonished by the amount of carbs I need to consume in order for my bs to stay good. I have now realized I need about 40-50grams per hours, which over a 14hr Iron Man turns out to be about 600-700grams of carbs, normal daily intake is about half, it will certainly be interesting to see if my stomach can handle that haha.. However I am trying to lower my basal insulin dose so that I do not have to keep feeding my bs all the time - it will hopefully also prevent me from getting low as easily.

 

After the ride I feel more confident that I have what it takes to finish the Iron Man! I felt strong at the end of it and felt like I could have continued. At the same time I also have more respect than ever for the Iron Man distance, I now know after having done a marathon and the 117km yesterday that when racing and after completing the Iron Man I will feel as shitty and tired as ever before. KEY is to stay strong mentally and that is what I try to prepare myself for every day now until race day!

 

 

I got accepted to the program I applied for starting this fall at GIH in stockholm! It is a 3-year program to become a coach/trainer. I am superpumped, I love school and am excited to learn a lot more about sport, physiology and coaching. I will be starting on september 1st I believe! Sooo sooon now!!! A new chapter of my life is beginning and it is going to be great!

 

Now back to the rest of my day which was very good even part from the news about school! Slept in and then had a chill morning followed by a 14km run in a nice and easy pace (6min/km), I was happy that it felt easy. 

 

When I got back Mr. C and I got groceries for tonight when we had dinner for my family, it turned out absolutely amzing! :) We got home and started preparing for the dinner straight away, for 2hrs we were cooking and cleaning and for once in great team work. We have now realized that if we keep to ourselves and do our own things, me in the kitchen and him cleaning the apt then it works great! Otherwise we just end up getting annoyed with eachother. 

 

First I made the desert which was frozen strawberry bars that I had found on pinterest a while ago. But the main dish was the best!

I am slowly rewiring my brain. Tonight I left the house with the intentions to throw the garbage out, "panta burkar", buy eggs and bananas, plus going to the candy store and get some candy! However, candy is not the best for me or for anyone for that matter. You consume unnecessary calories that your body does not need, mess up your metabolism, and even for nondiabetics your bs might rise, for me it will definetely rise. Knowing this I still give in at times and have some candy, but I do not even really like it and have always felt crappy after eating it, even before diabetes.

 

When I got to the store I tried to develop tunnel vision to only go grab what I needed, it kind of worked allthough I almost grabbed a coke. Then leaving the store I stopped and looked over towards the candy store and then looked towards home.. which way to go!? Started moving towards the candy but then after two steps I stopped myself and walked home.. you would think my battle was over then but NO! When I got home I got into a cleaning frenzy because the apartment seemed superdirty, I cleaned until sweat ran off my face - I decided that if I test my bs and it is low after this intense cleaning frenzy then I get to go buy candy - bs was 8.1 (=perfect), my candybattle this evening was over! Just cut up some apple and banana and had that instead, it was good and I feel sort of proud! 

 

So as I "hinted" about in my short post yesterday my monday did not go very well. It all began sunday night, had a great ride home from work but got home so late that I could not fall asleep until about midnight - not ideal when I had to wake up at 5am the next day. For those of you who do not know, with diabetes your bloodsugar is greatly affected by sleep or more so the lack of it. I finally fell asleep, but did not sleep great and kept waking up. Got to work in the morning and felt alright, had packed breakfast so ate it pretty early, about an hour later I realize I forgot to take insulin - DAMN! I thought for a second that it could still be fine because I had only had a darkbread eggsanwhich, but the bes wasnt fine it was at 13 and rising! Ah well, took the shot and hoped for the best... but no it stayed high until I got home from work at 3.30pm.. tired in many ways I do some work on my computer and make some calls, then laid down for a bit. 

 

Right when I got the most tired I had to get up to go meet up with my friend for dinner, if it would have been someone else I might have cancelled, but if anyone could understand my day it was Camilla (she also has type 1). We got sallads and sat in Kungsträdgården and chatted for over an hour then walked almost all the way home. It is truly different talking about this disease with someone else that has it, compared to  a "normal" person. You get confirmation of that you are not alone with this crappy illness!

 

On my way home I decided to go by my parents apartment and my mom and I went for a nice evening walk. It is so warm now, so we could wear tanktop and shorts! Crazy to think that about a week ago I was almost in my winter gear haha

 

 

So even though the day started crappy it sure ended great, very nice dinner with Camilla and then a great walk with mom!

 

Today I got up early to go swimming with dad at 7am, I was slowstarted today but when I got into it it went pretty well. When we got back mom and I had breakfast and then went to do a weight workout - its a lot of fun pushing her at the gym, she is a good student :)

 

Got home and laid out for a bit and burnt my stomach. I also attempted listening to Sommarpratarna - Edda Magnusson, because she also has type 1, however I am not a fan of talking radio so I did not make it through the whole thing. 

 

I was going to go out with Fanny tonight however we decided to go for a run instead, felt good! So now I have worked out for 3 hours today and have made up for the lack of working out yesterday - back on track!!! 

 

Diabetes wise the day has been good, but my glucose meter suffered some heatwaves and malfunctions and showed 15 one second and 6 the next. 

 

 

Tomorrow its running and biking with dad on the agenda! Looking forward to it! :)

But then it turned around... More about that tomorrow though because now I have to go to bed because I'm swimming at the crack of dawn tomorrow! 

Sthlm is so beautiful! 

 

After our walk we ran into a hot air baloon launch on the field just 100m from our apartment, so we ran home, prepared our dinner that was already almost done and ran out to eat it in front of some free-hot air baloon launching-entertainment :)  I will admit I got a bit embarassed haha because we were the only ones sitting there watching and eating. It seemed like a weird thing to do but Mr. C insisted we should, so we did.. and it ended up being great so good thing he convinced me.. sometimes I can be a butthead so I am glad I have someone like him to make me do things out of my comfortzone!

 

 

When we got back to our apt we just chilled, I was watching the Holland-Costa Rica game but as I said earlier I fell asleep haha I do not function very well on only 5hrs of sleep :P

 

Got a sore throat (probably from the lack of sleep) so did not run yesterday either, I biked to work today on my roadbike but did not go fast just cruised basically. I need to get going with my running again though, been slacking too much since the marathon. Hurt my leg/thigh/hip, probably wore it out a bit, so been giving it some rest. Have not ran more than 10km in one go in a month. So next week I WILL get started again! (Please hold me to it or ask me to come running with you :P)

 

Diabetes-wise my sugar has gone back to normal after my highs yesterday. However I really hate that every time I ride my bike I get low! Ate oatmeal for bfast today - it ALWAYS makes me high or close to high - but when I arrived at work my bs was at 4!! AAGGGHHH FRUSTRATION!! I even had a muesli bar on my bike on the way out to work. I wish I coul bike for at least 1hr before I start dropping - I definetely need to work on this because I am sure it is possible, but as anything else with diabetes things take time and (bad) experience to figure out. When my bs drops I loose all my energy which became really obvious on todays ride - I was passed by an old guy on an old cruising bike not even a roadbike and he wasnt even in work out clothes!!! haha Kind of embarassing, hope that doesnt happen during my Iron Man. I will be wearing a CGM (continous bs meter) during my race so I should be able to keep it under control - fingers crossed!

 

Working again tomorrow - so happy about that! I try to get as many shifts as possibly because I need the money! Probably will be doing some personal training with swimming this month as well so that should be good moneywise! 

 

 

My ride home today was awesome!! Was able to wear only my tank top and tights and the city was so alive and vibrant, the sun was on its way down and I had some good music (one ear), SUMMER in Stockholm is FINALLY HERE- those times just make me euforic! Sooo now lets stay on this good feeling, tomorrow its monday - another week and more challanges awaits!! YAY :) :) :)

Yesterday we were going to have lunch by the lake, instead we ended up having lunch on my parents balcony which was awesome. 

So here I am now at 7.30am about to get on the subway to go to work out in Orminge, 50min bus/subway/bus-ride :) I would bike it but I felt lazy today, the beers and hot dog dinner last night caused my bloodsugar to be high and I have barely slept (in my books 5hrs is barely sleeping at all) - therefor I'm on the lazy public transport system today haha

About the diabetes.. It's very strange because my high-symptoms are still non-existent, but right now my bs has been high for over 12hrs straight. Went to bed with bs at 11 and thought it would drop overnight because of a little alcohol intake, thus I had a banana and some OJ before bedtime, but when I woke up this am it was still 11.. So no luck there unfortunally :( its very frustrating that with this disease you are almost always punished instantly for the "wrong" things you do.. the things that aren't great for you (not great for anyone, I mean ANYONE), such as for example alcohol (which I rarely drink anyways), candy (hard to stay away from at times :) I won't lie), high carb foods like yesterday when we had chips and hot dogs for dinner (should be allowed, even without a working pancreas) It truly stinks! 

I think that sometime in the not so distance future I will become a health nut, however I am not there yet! For now it's candy and shots all the way (insulin shots ;) haha) 

Neither Mr. C or I work today so we've had a chill morning.. It's nice but I kind of have "ants in my pants" or myror I brallan as you would say in Sweden! Meaning I get restless if I chill for too long.

Last night I dragged Mr. C out for a short walk at about 9pm just because I felt like I had been inside for too long. I'm like a butterfly, I need to leave my cocoon haha bad comparison I know, but you get the picture!

About to jump in the shower and then we are going shopping, watering plants at parents apt, picking up keys for work tomorrow and having a sallad bar lunch by sickla lake 👍

I look tired haha - shower time!