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Diabetes wise the day has been a little up and down, but it had its reasons, thought I gave myself enough insulin for a piece of chocolate but apparantly not haha but now I think I am back to a steady bs again :) 

I am at my parents tonight, but my dad is away at the soccer game (Sweden-Austria I believe), so we are having a girls night. First we went for a walk with Alice and it was soo beautiful outside!

 I took some pics: 

I really like Sjöstaden it has a nice feeling to it, but I also like the community I live in Årsta, although it's hard to compare the two cause they are so different. Where I live are mostly old houses and here in sjöstaden it's all new developments. 

Anyhow, when we got home we made a delicious salad with broccoli, beans and a tastey basil vinegrette: 

Now we are chilling in front of Swedish idol and about to have berries with whipped cream for desert, yummy!!! 

Tomorrow I am going on a long run with my dad, hopefully my sore throat will get better.. Cause yeah unfortunally have a sore throat, but had one a couple of weeks ago too and it went away so I'm hoping for the same thing now :) 

Last thing, had my interview today and it felt great, good vibes and such a cool company with really awesome people working there! So many many fingers crossed, but not too many so it becomes unlucky ;) 

Have a good weekend peeps and an awesome Friday night ;) 

Mr. C has an appointment at the Swedish embassy in Washington DC next week!! :P so excited we are finally moving forward in this process, now it feels like this will actually happen and I am so happy, really been hard to be without the person you love most for so long.. but having gone through this only makes us stronger in the end I think ;)

 

Another awesome news is I have got an interview with a great company tomorrow, they sell outdoor sportswear and the position is with marketing for their website! fingers crossed it goes well, really have a good feeling for this one.. gotto stay positive!!

 

So far I have worked out 6hours this week, and my goal is to get up to 10hours. Tomorrow I am swimming in the AM then I am planning a long run this weekend and a weight session so I should make it ;) Maybe I will throw in a bikeride in the mix too! Eventual goal is to make it to 15hrs per week while still working full time, will see how that goes ;) 

 

Its weird but this week has been pretty good over all allthough my bs has been slightly elevated, need to increase my longlasting insulin, already increased it one unit but it doesnt seem like its enough, might increase one more tonight. Met with my new found friend through the diabetes organization here in stockholm today, her name is Camilla and she got diabetes when she was same age I am, and she is 3 years older than me. It is nice to have someone who has gone through similar things to talk too, we have a lot in common just with the diabetes. 

 

Tomorrow night me and my mom are making dinner together and having a girls night because my dad is not home tomorrow apparantly. Other than that I dont really have many plans for the weekend, besides working out of course ;) One thing I know I need to do is clean the apt, it will be nice when Mr.C gets here cause then he can help cleaning haha his room is always the bathroom which is what I dislike cleaning the most. I am excited for him to get here even if he wouldnt clean too tho haha so its not the only reason I want him to get here soon - obviously! 

 

 

 

Otherwise today I swam in the am then walked Alice and hung with her for a little. The worked out at the gym, very short but efficient workout. Tonight I met up with fanny and her friend from the US who's been playing soccer I'm Sweden for 3 months and is moving back to the states early tomorrow. We went back to fanny and her bf place and made tacos. It was delicious but unfortunately I took too much insulin, good thing I had a candy bar before I started the 40min bike ride home, cause when I got home my bs was at 4.1 :/ just had a glass of apple juice, tiny glass, cause don't want to get high, just wanna get to like 8-9 or something.

Anyhow tomorrow I'm watching Alice again and going for a run and then we are spinning with the triathlon team tomorrow night, will be intense for sure!!! 

I also got to talk to the awesomest person in the world today Mr.C :) unfortunately he is getting sick :( wish I could be there to take care of him... But since the visa approval is taking longer he might come visit here or I will go there and visit him sometime soon :P hopefully it will happen!!! :) 

Tomorrow I'm swimming at 6.30am then taking Alice for a walk and then going to the gym.. After that I don't know, those who live will see (Swedish saying) ;)

Ciao ciao 

Set my alarm for 8am today to get up and going early (earlier than normal) to go for a bike ride... when I woke up I had a first thought of "why did I have to decide I was gonna do this?" but shortly after I decided it would be fun. Had oatmeal and then waited a little bit, like 1hr, was out on my bike by 9.20. I usually dont eat anything big before a morning workout, because then I have to take insulin, today I only took 1unit which isnt enough for oatmeal, but I did that on purpose since I knew I was gonna go for a ride which would get my bs even lower. I will admit I had some left over yoghurt candy from last night too :P haha. In the beginning of my ride I was pretty sluggish, but I wanted to get through 40km, so I stuck to it. Eventually it got easier, the best part of the ride was probably the last 10km, I usually get better the further I go, proven by my cooper test yesterday, its very hard for me to speed up quickly. Its kinda weird cause in life I am a pretty speedy person, in the sense that I always want to get things done quick and think of myself as a very efficient person. Anyhow, checked my bs half way, was at 9, before I left it was at 10 which was understandable because by that time the insulin I had taken with bfast had not gotten to its full effect yet either. I kept drinking my energy water even though I knew I started off high because I was excpecting it to drop, since insulin+workout=a quicker bs drop than just insulin without working out. I decided not to keep drinking the energy water as much on the 2nd half of the ride, when I got home I was at 5, I would have wanted to be at like 7, so thats alright. During my ride I kept thinking of what I had learnt at Bosön yesterday; that when you ride you need to try keeping your shoulderblades together, otherwise its easy to get neck and shoulder pain. I always get neck pain, but today I didnt because I kept my shoulderblades together! Sitting here typing this I am noticing that when I type on my computer I do not keep the shoulderblades tight and I start feeling neck pain.. seems to be the explanation to why many people who have deskjobs get back problems. So big advice to anyone, think of keeping your shouldblades tight together more, it helps preventing neck and back pain a lot and helps strengthen your muscles back there! The physical therapy guy that helped me get better from my shoulder injury at Cleveland State gave me exercises where I had to think about putting my shoulder blades together, but I never thought it was better for anything other than my swimming and shoulder injury... but I was wrong!! Learned so many new things yesterday!! EXCITING!!!

 

When I got back from biking my bike was so dirty, so washed it properly, and now its cleaner than its ever been!!! :P Mr. C would be proud! ;)

Afterwards fanny and I went into the city and looked through the shops for a while and I got my new insulin pen that will allow me to take half units of insulin and not only full units, it will allow me to match the insulin to the food even better. YAY!! :) haha tomorrow I'm gonna make an effort to get out on a bike ride in the am, will see how it goes cause I'm usually not awesome riding by myself! ;) but ill make my best attempt!!   

Down below is a pic of my new and old insulin pen, the new one is the red one ;)

Night

Swam in the am, we did sprint cause fanny and I were both feeling pretty out of it and my dad was okay with anything haha everyone felt slow this morning. Then I went to my parents and babysat Alice the dog all day while looking for jobs, making cinnamon buns cause today is national cinnamon bun day in Sweden (ate a little too much so felt a little sick from all the yeast in the buns haha, but no high bs just low :/ weird right haha), I also made an attempt at walnut bread by inspiration from a TV show I watched last night "hela sverige bakar", Alice and I went for two walks one short one and one over an hour! Now we are gonna have family dinner, dad is making "kantarell" (type of mushroom) pie with a sallad! So yummy!!! Very excited for tomorrow, going to a sports facility with the triathlon team and doing some fitness testing!! :) 

Here r some pics from this pretty A okay day! 

Below: walk with Alice in beautiful fall weather!!!

Today made me realize; I'm glad not every day is cinnamon bun day and so is my diabetes! ;)

Ciao

Talking about confusion, when I came home on my bike last night I took my gloves off to lock my bike and put them on the back of the bike like I always do. This morning I couldn't find the gloves, I'm thinking where could they be, then I look out my window and see them still laying on the bike haha I took a pic of it;

Let's hope clarity is the word for next week! Enough deep thoughts out of me, let me know if you all get to sick reading about this, or if I don't make sense or contradict myself cause sometimes I feel like I do :/

Have a great day! 

Let me just say this, only a diabetic can have a gianourmous meal, salmon with potatoes and princess cake for desert (dinner at folks for brothers bday), and be having feelings of starvation an hour later.. The result of too much insulin, had to save my mistake by downing some apple juice.. Some credit to my mom for telling me not to take more insulin, which would have made this situation even worse, because I was about to take two more units after the meal cause I thought I ate way too much and didnt want to end up at 15 again like yesterday, but she told me not to, and now after my bikeride home I was at 4! so thank god for her! ;) I dont even know how low my bs would have gotten to then. The reason I had apple juice instead of real food was because, its really high on sugar but not as high on calories, compared to for example a sandwhich, would have to eat many sanwhiches to get my sugar up as easily as with only half a cup of apple juice ;) Slowly but surely learning the tricks to fix my bs!! :P

 

Waking up early tomorrow, was offered to work the fair from 8am-4pm instead of just the afternoon, so of course I said yes! :) Was fun today! Working with fun people!

 

Night :)

You people who know me well probably know what this post is really about ;)

CIAO

One can really tell that it's almost winter, love the winter season!! Was dark out when I woke up this morning, EXCITING! :) love the xmas markets, lights, food, the cold and everything else about it!! Just found out my brother won't be home for Xmas, which is the first time that the four of us aren't celebrating it together, weird that it wasn't me who caused it, considering I've been in the US for 4 years! However we will still be 4 cause Mr. C will be here! :) 

Last night I was high after dinner, didn't really eat a well out together meal either :( too many carbs! But then I tried getting bs down, so took 1 unit thinking it will bring it down some but since I was going to bed soon, I didn't want it to go too low so I would have to eat again before bed.. But that's exactly what happened, first hour it dropped from 15-8!? So had some apple juice and then went to bed, woke up at 6 so that's good :) my diabetes nurse just prescribed me an insulin pen that will allow me to take 1/2 units of insulin as well, a friend from the diabetes organization told me about it, and I think it's gonna help me a lot to give myself the right doses!!

Have a good day peeps! 

I just wrote the longest blog post ever and it was all deleted, now I have to rewrite it!! this is not someting that you want to have happened to you when you are already down for other things, these other things in my case was looking at posibly job opportunities, I have thought about becoming a cop in the past, but dont know if I would want to... however I just looked up the requirements, and you cannot become a cop when you have Type1 diabetes... Here I am trying to prove that anything is possible with type 1, but the government, or someone, is putting down restrictions.. another thing that I have heard is that they are putting more restrictions on type 1s when it comes to their driving, we have to have better sight than "normal" people to keep our license. Totally not fair! Up until 10months ago I could do anything I wanted, but now I cannot anymore.. DAMN it, thats DEPRESSING!! Thats not how I should be thinking!! gotto focus on the things I can do I guess right? Then comes the question, what do I want to do? I want to do something that will help others like me realize that there are very few things that they cannot not do because of their diagnosis.. I am very interested in sports and have noticed a lot of other type 1s are hesitant about working out, and often put limitations on that. But I believe that it is possible to work out just as much as a non diabetic. I will have to admit that before my diabetes it was a lot easier for me to work out a lot, however, today I had some success! For the first time since my diabetes I was able to do two workouts really well with motivation! :P SO EXCITED!!!!

 

Another thing I am excited for is that its OCTOBER! Mine and my brothers birth month, PLUS NEXT MONTH MR.C GETS HERE!! So excited to show him Europe and Sweden, we are going for a trip to the swedish mountains on new years already, cannot wait!! 

 

Tomorrow I am working at KISTA MÄSSAN as an host and then going to the folks to celebrate my brothers bday, he is 21!!! OMG!!! Earlier tomorrow I am going to the hospital at 8am already, getting some stats and a much needed talk to get out some diabetic frustration! then I am gonna go to the gym, my weight workouts have been sucking lately, hopefully tomorrow it wont! 

 

Unfortunally this post didnt turn out to be as long, new plan, write more often and shorter posts, these long posts are prob not as fun anyways, rather than a regular one or two shorter posts every day.. it seems to be the trend on these blogs anyways.

 

Some pics from instagram below:

 

Now I'm about to go out with my friend Fanny and her friends, just had a Celsius energy drink to get some energy, laying on the couch for 4hrs didn't give me enough. Haha 

Anyhow been a pretty good day, so far no bs readings over 10! SCORE!!!! :)

Here are some pics from today

Ready to go out 

Ttyl

Swam this morning, went great, and had a pretty good day today until the afternoon, took a little bit too much insulin for lunch and was getting low about 2 hours afterwards, so I ate a couple of candy pieces which brought me to a good level. Then I prepared an early dinner, chickpea zucchini and tomato soup and an egg sandwhich, also had a couple of pieces of candy with that ( I am aware that this candy snacking has to stop, but really thought I could manage it), but thought my dinner was so light carb wise that one unit novo rapid would be enough, especially since I wanted to end up a little high (10) because I was gonna run for more than 90min only 2hrs after dinner and didnt want to have to eat again. After dinner I ended up at 14 at my first check, felt like I was getting high, was feeling feverish and getting a really pounding headache, which is why I checked my sugar to begin with, anyhow took 2 units to try to push my BS down. 45min later, only an hour before when my running workout with the triathlon team was going to start, my sugar was 16.5, which seemed odd to me, however not based on how I was feeling cause I was feeling really crappy at this point.. anyhow I decide not to run based on that Ive been told its deangerous to work out when your BS is above 15, called Fanny, because we were going to run together, and we decide to go for a walk around old town.. but before I leave my apt I kind of pannicked (because I read a fb post from another diabetic that we have to manage our diabetes really well to not get damaged organs later on - freaked me out), and took another 2 units, biked into the city, 1hr after my last shot my BS was then at 4.1!!!! (from 16.5 to 4.1 in one hour :() Since we were going for a walk, meaning more moving, meaning BS will drop more, especially since I recently took insulin - I decided to take 2 sugar tabs. 20min later, no change so I took 2 more tabs. 30min later it had gone up, I started biking home and stopped on the way home to get some cold medecine at the grocery store, walk in to the store and spend 200kr without getting medecine, completely fogetting, and sweating like a pig feeling another hypoglycemic attack coming on :/ I pay and walk out of the store, BS is lower again - 3.7 :/ eat some yoghurt snacks because at this moment I felt like I could eat anything and a lot of anything too! Knees were shaking from being low for so long and I felt sort of like I had had a couple of glasses of wine or something (meaning I felt tipsy from BS being weird)... its what the low does to you. I started riding home, called mom to keep me sane for the ride.. Fortunally when I get home Im at 6.7, so its finally going up! THANK GOD! However at this point, I really had to think of what to eat so that I would not get high again, because it is very easy to go quickly from low to high because of some complex bodily functions that I dont want to get into right now (and to be honest Im not even sure whats going on completely either yet) With help from my mom we decide that 2 finn crisps with cream cheese and cuecumber and a carrot seems good.. its important that the food you eat after the BS goes up from sugary foods is low carb and high fiber food. Now my sugar is finally sort of stabilized at 9 which is okay for me.. hopefully tomorrow is a better day diabetes wise, cause today kinda sucked! Vision is blurry, head is hurting, and feeling dizzy, but soon it is time to go to bed and recharge my batteries for a new day WITH BETTER NUMBERS!!!! 

 

After more thought, there is one really great thing about this horrible disease, you really learn that your friends and family are the best! Big thanks to Fanny, Mr. C, and MOM! for getting me through this night and always being there for me! :)

 

お休みなさい - according to google, good night in japanese ;)

Even though this job isn't what I want to do for the rest of my life it is fun to just have something to do for a couple of days :) because I still haven't found out if I got the job I talked about earlier!! It's taking a while, that's for sure! At this point I'm hoping I'll know something by the end of this week! Fingers crossed!!

Diabetes wise the past couple of days have been odd, I've been weirdly high but not like super high, just slightly too high and also been laying too high over night and waking up at 8mmol/l which is way too high for a morning/fasting reading. I think it might be because I am playing it too safe at night, thinking that it doesn't matter if I'm high cause then I can go to bed without worrying that I would get hypoglycemic during the night. Tonight I had 8.6, which is great, so hopefully ill wake up lower than the past couple of days. When I wake up too high I feel like I've been knocked by a bus sort of. I hope that tomorrow is better, cause it takes a lot longer to get energy when I wake up too high. Also, I don't think I need to take more long lasting insulin, I think I might have to take more mealtime insulin and snack less carb foods at night.. Which is easier said than done cause I always crave unhealthy stuff at night, tonight I satisfied myself with a rice cake haha, not really that satisfying tho to be honest haha

Tonigh I went for a walk and met up with my mom and we walked around "Årsta viken" where we stopped at the outdoor gym areas they have (3 of them) and did some exercises, I was a nice less intense workout although I'm already sore... Some of it might be from the 12Km I ran yesterday tho too ;) 

Here are some pics from the walk!

Tomorrow I'm waking up too early to swim so I should really be sleeping already. Definitely have to kick this going to bed late habit before I start working, whenever I finally end up getting a job! ;)

Night peeps

Needless to say it takes a lot to get over the fact that I have diabetes.. And as I said in the last post it's more about coming to terms with it than anything that is my main issue at the moment. However, with this issue of diabetes the issue of what I want to do in my life in terms of personal achievements becomes even greater. I basically have no clue and am more determined to find out than ever. My strategy is to try as many things I can, and to be open to suggestions in order to hopefully come to a conclusion about this at least before I turn 30 :P haha 

Now to this weekends events, yesterday was a great day, mom and I had a slow morning and then went to a farmers market with Alice (dog) to get some veggies for lunch and dinner (we had dinner with aunt and cousin last night, had a great time) then we took our bikes over to my apt and picked up a few things as I barely had any clothes at my parents place. And then we went back and baked and cooked all afternoon basically! Made these super delicious sour cream almond apricot cupcakes with heavy cream, almond and mascarpone topping, I also made super delicious pecan squares!!! Bad thing about baking is that you end up eating a lot of it afterwards, almost wish I could bake for a living instead cause I would imagine I wouldn't eat as much of it then, maybe I should open a bakery? It's actually been an idea of mine, move to a smaller town and open my own bakery? Or maybe a healthy bakery that people with diabetes doesn't have to feel guilty going to? Who knows what ill do haha I have so many ideas, but better that I say, than none at all ;)

Today mom and I went on a long walk, ate a lot of baked goods and then I went swimming just now (sucked really bad today unfortunally, however the other two times I swam this week went great so I'm still okay with this weeks accomplishments) 

Now we are gonna have dinner, salad with pesto pasta :) gonna be yummy!

Although after all this baking and eating the baked goods I have to say I'm not too hungry haha

Below here are some pics from the weekend :) 

Tomorrow I'm lifting in the AM and then going to meet another type 1 diabetic that is my age and was diagnosed a year and a half before me, so we share very similar stories. Gonna be interesting and fun for sure! It's nice to see that I am not the only one fighting this endless battle! 

Go' kväll ;) 

The positive thing is, deep down I know I will get through this because I don't give up, I just need to allow myself to be weak at times, which I've learned is probably one of the most important things for staying strong (weird and contradicting I know, but so true). With that comes taking help, support, and sharing my story with others. No battles are won by a single person, neither will the battle of my life be... It's hard to realize that you are dependent on other people helping you to get through the day, however, now that I am working on that I am hopeful that with a lot of work and dedication by me, my life with diabetes will get better and easier. What I've been trying to do so far is more trying to push the diabetes out of the way, instead of realizing its unfortunally here to stay. But now I'm going to make an effort to accepting it. It will take some time, but I'm sure I'll get there one day!

That's all the deep thoughts I had for tonight! 

Good night people

BTW.. Does anyone else have issues with snacking at night!? If you do and have any tips to stop it, please let me know! :) some days I'm just in such a snacking mood.

Anyhow, I'm going to bed very soon, should be in bed already cause I'm waking up at 5.30 to go swim tomorrow, first AM workout with the triathlon team I joined. Did my first full workout with them yesterday, 90min running and 60min swim, was fun! Of course I put myself at the head of the fastest swimming lane, as the competitor I am, I was able to hold my position but it wasn't an easy job, certainly not since it was my first swim since the triathlon a few weeks ago. After swimming tomorrow morning Fanny and I are going to a hotel breakfast! Been craving it for so long now, just love a Swedish hotel bfast they are the absolute best!!!! :)

Hopefully ill receive a very important and positive call tomorrow about a job I'm up for! Fingers crossed :) :)

Ciao! 

Through the help of my little diabetes blood sugar device I was able to control my sugar really well all throughout the race, wanted to stay pretty high cause I've noticed that if I keep feeding myself sugar to stay over 8 then I will keep my energy through the whole race and that's what I did today! The hardest part with racing with diabetes is the start, cause in the beginning there are so much adrenaline and nerves that my BS goes up without consuming carbs or sugar. 

Ever since the interview yesterday I havent been able to relax, having my first half marathon tomorrow doesnt help either haha... been just trying to do things that makes me happy, allthough today I havent even left my apt, might go for a ride into the city in a bit though. 

Today I made these really awesome paintings with acrylic paint for our apartment, but cannot show them yet, they are a surprise, so you´ve got to wait until like november ;) haha

 

Obviously now that I am a little stressed my blodd sugar (BS) is like sky rocketing, although it doesnt seem to bother me too much anymore to have high BS, what bothers me is more if I go up and down too much, but yesterday I was stable between 8-12 most of the time, allthough I did wake up in the middle of the night from my BS device that I have now this week, because my BS was over 15, so it was pretty much telling me my BS was way too high! so that was weird. Hopefully I will get into some kind of routine soon when I will hopefully have a job, because I am sure that will balance my sugar a bit!

 

Gonna try to get some organizing and cleaning done today too, but I always think that I should do that and want to do it, however I always procrastinate it, so we will see how that goes :P

 

CIAO