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Thursday next week I am gonna get my HbA1c tested again, scary stuff!! I shuoldnt have gotten such a good first test.. then maybe I wouldnt feel so much pressure about it now. Joke aside, hopeffully its not too crappy!

I have now worked out for 9 days in a row, so today I think is gonna be my first rest day! :) the weather is rainy and a lot colder then the past few days too, so no fun to go out and workout. Yesterday I ran 8.5km in 50minutes :) and on monday Mr.C and I went on a 40km+ bikeride in the Cleveland Metroparks. Was very beautiful, grass was green and yellow flowers were convering the woods. We were also able to go really fast, at least on the 2nd half of the trip, during the 1st half my diabetes was messing with me, I had a high after breakfast and had to take some extra insulin right before we went out on our ride, so was running low on energy... For those of you that dont know how the diabetes affects you, when it sways a lot you loose a lot of energy because the sugar/energy does not get out to the muscles the normal way it would in a non diabetic person. It is hard to explain the feeling, because I have never experienced anything like it before, even though I have been an athlete my whole life, I have never gotten so tired that I have felt no energy in my muscles. What happened on monday was that my legs started cramping too, the only thing I can compare it too is with the feeling right after lifting weights for like an hour really hard and then trying to walk up some stairs.. usually you feel like every step is a struggle.. Thats kind of how I feel when my sugar has dropped from high to lower and I try to work out on top of that. 

 

Tonight I have one of my last exams in college, then I have to start working some more on my three assignments due next week, one is a big project including a presentation and the other two are smaller assignments (about 2-3 pages). I have certainly been procrastinating with these, but I am starting to run a little low on time, this weekend is pretty booked too because on saturday we have our swimming luncheon banquet and on sunday I am doing the swim for diabetes. 

 

Started watching this swedish show yesterday, my mom has been telling me about it forever, but as with anything, people can never really tell me what to do, because I wont really do it until I feel like I want to do it :P Anyhow, started watching it yesterday and was hooked, which proves the point I guess that mothers are usually right ;) haha Its called "mot alla odds" and is about 10 adults with disabilities, some are in wheel chairs some have amputaded limbs and one of them is blind. They have taken on the challange to walk through the Nicaraguan jungle and over volcanoes to get from the atlantic ocean to the pacific ocean. The areas they have to walk through are definetely not wheelchair friendly or well adjusted for any of their disabilities, but they get through it and its awesome to see what the human body can overcome and adjust to. It gave me some great motivation with my own struggles, it made me feel like I can and need to keep challanging myself every day. I cannot dig myself into a hole where I am not as exposed to the dangers of my disease just because I am scared. I think for the future, I am going to have to take on great challanges to stay motivated and to be able to stay sane with this diesease.. because it is very easy to let it control and define you. There are obviously things you need to think about to remain healthy, but I cannot do anything less than I would if I wouldnt have gotten diabetes.. I think because I have diabetes I should try and do even more and I think I will.. For example, one thing that I have talked about before is to complete an Iron Man. Going on my 40k bikeride on monday and struggling a lot, made me a little sad because it made me realize how far I have left to an Iron Man, which includes a 180k bikeride. However, completing an Iron Man isnt easy to begin with and even harder with diabetes, but it is not supposed to be easy, it is a challange. But like I said before, I think I need challanges! I just have to make sure to not get upset when I am struggling during a 40k ride, because it is a journey.. ;)

 

Thats all for now, a lot of big thoughts during the past couple of days :P I guess I am in that kind of mood this week!

ttyl

 

 

A collage I found on google.. thought it looked cool!